"I don't mind to accept it." -- bad english. not from me lah. I overheard.
every morning i take the 8.53 train to work. So usually I see the same faces, and this is usually this girl who looks like Taboo from BEP, she drops off at Bugis and there's this tall chinak guy who looks like a model with slits for eyes, very metrosexual, and he drops off after Tg Pagar. There is also this husband and wife team who I think naik at Tampines, and the husband knows like half the people in the train sometimes, so many of his friends will squeeze through just to get to where he's standing just to talk to him. There is also this girl, who is abt 23 to 25 yrs old... and she's always dressed in this really grown up office wear, (and she looks like Madam Hassan) and she'll be with this Indian lady lah, day in day out. So today she was in the train, she got a seat and I was standing opposite her reading Prozac Nation, when her colleague (presumably. never seen before) boarded the train. They started talking and since I was tired of reading, I eavesdropped a bit. I got the idea that they were sales people, earning big bucks due to commision. Then the guy asked the grownupdressedgirl, how much do you make a month? She answered, about 5 plus you know. Haughtily, loudly, making sure people heard her. The guy then replied, ''oh i make about 10 plus" Then the girl said, oh is that a laptop in there? (the guy was carrying a really huge bag which looks like it contains a laptop) Then the guy macam embarassed, said no, it looks like it contains a laptop, but it's actually loads of files and documents. Then he laughed nervously.
Perhaps due to envy that they earning 10 plus a month, I shall say, tak kan 10k tak boleh afford laptop beb.. tak kan kena bawak laptop bag tapi dalam files and documents?
Sigh.
On to more interesting topics. I called Mazreen up last night, demanding to know what time he's coming home. He laugh-laugh, say he's on the way back. Talked to him til abt 2am.... the convo started off well, happily.... then it moved on, mostly to the topic of our future, and hantaran and weddings in general...
Can't say it was a good convo in the end because we ended up worried about finances.... he wants to take an extra job... he said a lot of people are doing it and if they can cope, so can he. Sigh. To me it was a very heavy conversation. Sigh.
Everything revolves around money doesn't it.
Sigh.
every morning i take the 8.53 train to work. So usually I see the same faces, and this is usually this girl who looks like Taboo from BEP, she drops off at Bugis and there's this tall chinak guy who looks like a model with slits for eyes, very metrosexual, and he drops off after Tg Pagar. There is also this husband and wife team who I think naik at Tampines, and the husband knows like half the people in the train sometimes, so many of his friends will squeeze through just to get to where he's standing just to talk to him. There is also this girl, who is abt 23 to 25 yrs old... and she's always dressed in this really grown up office wear, (and she looks like Madam Hassan) and she'll be with this Indian lady lah, day in day out. So today she was in the train, she got a seat and I was standing opposite her reading Prozac Nation, when her colleague (presumably. never seen before) boarded the train. They started talking and since I was tired of reading, I eavesdropped a bit. I got the idea that they were sales people, earning big bucks due to commision. Then the guy asked the grownupdressedgirl, how much do you make a month? She answered, about 5 plus you know. Haughtily, loudly, making sure people heard her. The guy then replied, ''oh i make about 10 plus" Then the girl said, oh is that a laptop in there? (the guy was carrying a really huge bag which looks like it contains a laptop) Then the guy macam embarassed, said no, it looks like it contains a laptop, but it's actually loads of files and documents. Then he laughed nervously.
Perhaps due to envy that they earning 10 plus a month, I shall say, tak kan 10k tak boleh afford laptop beb.. tak kan kena bawak laptop bag tapi dalam files and documents?
Sigh.
On to more interesting topics. I called Mazreen up last night, demanding to know what time he's coming home. He laugh-laugh, say he's on the way back. Talked to him til abt 2am.... the convo started off well, happily.... then it moved on, mostly to the topic of our future, and hantaran and weddings in general...
Can't say it was a good convo in the end because we ended up worried about finances.... he wants to take an extra job... he said a lot of people are doing it and if they can cope, so can he. Sigh. To me it was a very heavy conversation. Sigh.
Everything revolves around money doesn't it.
Sigh.
9/30/2004 10:09:00 am | Permalink |
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
I rushed all the way home today, buka puasa (only a few more days to pay back!) with the pizza my parents bought from pizzahut JB and then siap2 to go Mazreen's house pulak. Took the wallet, went to Wallet Shop TM to change it, then went to Mcdonalds Interchange. Then Mazreen called, he's coming over to take the wallet. I was getting out of the car when his moto masuk the carpark and he came over to help with the stuff. My mom then went off to fetch my dad from the Masjid Istighfar (is that the one at pasir ris?) Mazreen followed us up and ate his fillet outside my house at that kerusi at the balcony (parents not in, so mcm tak manis ah konon for him to come in. heh)
Then he went off to meet his friend.
I am now at home, bathed, watched TV, and now updating my blog.
Feeling rather tired and I think I shall go to sleep after blogging. I dont even know why I am blogging now. Boredom perhaps... while waiting for him to come back coz I want to talk to him for a while before I sleep.
Finished reading Jane Green's The Other Woman already. Very fast eh? I'm quite impressed with myself actually, haha. Spent last night and morning's train ride and the whole of lunchtime - 2 hours - today reading it and now I'm done. Tomorrow starting on Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel. I like reading books about depression, schizos, all these mental probs stuff. One of the best ones so far is "The Quiet Room" but I forgot who's the author. True story, and very moving. Go find it at the library.
"The Little Prince", although not about mental probs, is also a good book - go find it at Kino or something.
Btw, Kak Ana, I used the vouchers already tau... I bought the 2 books mentioned above, total cost $48 so I had to top up $8... and I used the $10 to buy Tuesdays with Morrie the other time... so thanks a lot. Because of you, I now am richer by 3 books. Hehe. Nak pinjam? Bilang ajer, I'll pass to u. (that goes for anyone here also. nak pinjam, email me or something..)
Mazreen's been wanting to read the "5 people You Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom but I don't think he'll ever finish it coz I dont think the book is something he thinks it is. heh. That book is also the book that he saw me reading in the train the last time we saw each other before we got to know each other all over again. hehehe.
Oh I'm so bored I'm probably going to just blog crap. I hope Jane Green is writing a new book with penuh semangat coz I already read all her books and need new ones already. I think for the record, I have 4 of her 6 books - the one I dont have is Jemima J and Bookends... borrowed them from the library instead.
Ok, update on the SGH thing. I thought it wasn't necessary to take the medication already, pasal IT has stopped... sekali it started again dah tadi. I'm so pissed off. Meaning now I got to take the medication kan.... and the appointment's next week!! I won't have enough time to gauge if I'm ok or not.
Ye I know I'm not a doctor, I can't know for sure if I'm ok or not.... but... haiyah. It's just so annoying lah. Anyhoos I'm going to.. yups.. postpone it again. hurhur. Sekali by the time I finally turn up for the appointment, the MO that attended to me dah dapat his Professorship (do they call it Professorship??) already eh. (that's like an eg to show how long it can be to the next appt.. hehe. bad example though, i admit.)
I just realized I'm bad at killing mosquitoes. there's one in my room right now and I clapped my hands over it real damn hard.. feeling ultra satisfied it's now squashed dead on my palm.
.... Sekali tengok benda tu tengah terbang-terbang still.. albeit a bit further away from me now. I feel like such a failure. I can't even kill mosquitoes.
hahahaha. that last 2 statements is added for drama effects ajer. I dont feel like a failure lah. I know I'm good at other things.
One of the best things M said to me ever, "I lurp you coz you are so determined to do what you have to do." altogether now... AWWWWWWWW!!! Now is he sweet or what? hehe. And today when I went over his house to collect the wallet, inside the bag was a letter (really coolly written - it was done questionnaire style and I wish I could post it up here for everyone to see how sweet he is but it's rather private kan, hehe) and this thing he did back then - 2 heartshapes intertwined carved onto some thing lah. (I'm so bad at describing things, haha) I'm going to put it at my workplace and drool at the thought of this sweet guy. heehee.
Entry ni macam panjang eh. It's 11.14pm now. TAK TAHU NAK BALIK KE!!
Nvm I shall end this now and call him. Who cares if I come off as a demanding gf. hurhur. I demand demand demand his time so I can talk to him now now now.
psycho lah.
hehehehehe.
goodnight you all. muchos loveos.
Then he went off to meet his friend.
I am now at home, bathed, watched TV, and now updating my blog.
Feeling rather tired and I think I shall go to sleep after blogging. I dont even know why I am blogging now. Boredom perhaps... while waiting for him to come back coz I want to talk to him for a while before I sleep.
Finished reading Jane Green's The Other Woman already. Very fast eh? I'm quite impressed with myself actually, haha. Spent last night and morning's train ride and the whole of lunchtime - 2 hours - today reading it and now I'm done. Tomorrow starting on Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel. I like reading books about depression, schizos, all these mental probs stuff. One of the best ones so far is "The Quiet Room" but I forgot who's the author. True story, and very moving. Go find it at the library.
"The Little Prince", although not about mental probs, is also a good book - go find it at Kino or something.
Btw, Kak Ana, I used the vouchers already tau... I bought the 2 books mentioned above, total cost $48 so I had to top up $8... and I used the $10 to buy Tuesdays with Morrie the other time... so thanks a lot. Because of you, I now am richer by 3 books. Hehe. Nak pinjam? Bilang ajer, I'll pass to u. (that goes for anyone here also. nak pinjam, email me or something..)
Mazreen's been wanting to read the "5 people You Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom but I don't think he'll ever finish it coz I dont think the book is something he thinks it is. heh. That book is also the book that he saw me reading in the train the last time we saw each other before we got to know each other all over again. hehehe.
Oh I'm so bored I'm probably going to just blog crap. I hope Jane Green is writing a new book with penuh semangat coz I already read all her books and need new ones already. I think for the record, I have 4 of her 6 books - the one I dont have is Jemima J and Bookends... borrowed them from the library instead.
Ok, update on the SGH thing. I thought it wasn't necessary to take the medication already, pasal IT has stopped... sekali it started again dah tadi. I'm so pissed off. Meaning now I got to take the medication kan.... and the appointment's next week!! I won't have enough time to gauge if I'm ok or not.
Ye I know I'm not a doctor, I can't know for sure if I'm ok or not.... but... haiyah. It's just so annoying lah. Anyhoos I'm going to.. yups.. postpone it again. hurhur. Sekali by the time I finally turn up for the appointment, the MO that attended to me dah dapat his Professorship (do they call it Professorship??) already eh. (that's like an eg to show how long it can be to the next appt.. hehe. bad example though, i admit.)
I just realized I'm bad at killing mosquitoes. there's one in my room right now and I clapped my hands over it real damn hard.. feeling ultra satisfied it's now squashed dead on my palm.
.... Sekali tengok benda tu tengah terbang-terbang still.. albeit a bit further away from me now. I feel like such a failure. I can't even kill mosquitoes.
hahahaha. that last 2 statements is added for drama effects ajer. I dont feel like a failure lah. I know I'm good at other things.
One of the best things M said to me ever, "I lurp you coz you are so determined to do what you have to do." altogether now... AWWWWWWWW!!! Now is he sweet or what? hehe. And today when I went over his house to collect the wallet, inside the bag was a letter (really coolly written - it was done questionnaire style and I wish I could post it up here for everyone to see how sweet he is but it's rather private kan, hehe) and this thing he did back then - 2 heartshapes intertwined carved onto some thing lah. (I'm so bad at describing things, haha) I'm going to put it at my workplace and drool at the thought of this sweet guy. heehee.
Entry ni macam panjang eh. It's 11.14pm now. TAK TAHU NAK BALIK KE!!
Nvm I shall end this now and call him. Who cares if I come off as a demanding gf. hurhur. I demand demand demand his time so I can talk to him now now now.
psycho lah.
hehehehehe.
goodnight you all. muchos loveos.
9/29/2004 10:50:00 pm | Permalink |
I rushed all the way home today, buka puasa (only a few more days to pay back!) with the pizza my parents bought from pizzahut JB and then siap2 to go Mazreen's house pulak. Took the wallet, went to Wallet Shop TM to change it, then went to Mcdonalds Interchange. Then Mazreen called, he's coming over to take the wallet. I was getting out of the car when his moto masuk the carpark and he came over to help with the stuff. My mom then went off to fetch my dad from the Masjid Istighfar (is that the one at pasir ris?) Mazreen followed us up and ate his fillet outside my house at that kerusi at the balcony (parents not in, so mcm tak manis ah konon for him to come in. heh)
Then he went off to meet his friend.
I am now at home, bathed, watched TV, and now updating my blog.
Feeling rather tired and I think I shall go to sleep after blogging. I dont even know why I am blogging now. Boredom perhaps... while waiting for him to come back coz I want to talk to him for a while before I sleep.
Finished reading Jane Green's The Other Woman already. Very fast eh? I'm quite impressed with myself actually, haha. Spent last night and morning's train ride and the whole of lunchtime - 2 hours - today reading it and now I'm done. Tomorrow starting on Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel. I like reading books about depression, schizos, all these mental probs stuff. One of the best ones so far is "The Quiet Room" but I forgot who's the author. True story, and very moving. Go find it at the library.
"The Little Prince", although not about mental probs, is also a good book - go find it at Kino or something.
Btw, Kak Ana, I used the vouchers already tau... I bought the 2 books mentioned above, total cost $48 so I had to top up $8... and I used the $10 to buy Tuesdays with Morrie the other time... so thanks a lot. Because of you, I now am richer by 3 books. Hehe. Nak pinjam? Bilang ajer, I'll pass to u. (that goes for anyone here also. nak pinjam, email me or something..)
Mazreen's been wanting to read the "5 people You Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom but I don't think he'll ever finish it coz I dont think the book is something he thinks it is. heh. That book is also the book that he saw me reading in the train the last time we saw each other before we got to know each other all over again. hehehe.
Oh I'm so bored I'm probably going to just blog crap. I hope Jane Green is writing a new book with penuh semangat coz I already read all her books and need new ones already. I think for the record, I have 4 of her 6 books - the one I dont have is Jemima J and Bookends... borrowed them from the library instead.
Ok, update on the SGH thing. I thought it wasn't necessary to take the medication already, pasal IT has stopped... sekali it started again dah tadi. I'm so pissed off. Meaning now I got to take the medication kan.... and the appointment's next week!! I won't have enough time to gauge if I'm ok or not.
Ye I know I'm not a doctor, I can't know for sure if I'm ok or not.... but... haiyah. It's just so annoying lah. Anyhoos I'm going to.. yups.. postpone it again. hurhur. Sekali by the time I finally turn up for the appointment, the MO that attended to me dah dapat his Professorship (do they call it Professorship??) already eh. (that's like an eg to show how long it can be to the next appt.. hehe. bad example though, i admit.)
I just realized I'm bad at killing mosquitoes. there's one in my room right now and I clapped my hands over it real damn hard.. feeling ultra satisfied it's now squashed dead on my palm.
.... Sekali tengok benda tu tengah terbang-terbang still.. albeit a bit further away from me now. I feel like such a failure. I can't even kill mosquitoes.
hahahaha. that last 2 statements is added for drama effects ajer. I dont feel like a failure lah. I know I'm good at other things.
One of the best things M said to me ever, "I lurp you coz you are so determined to do what you have to do." altogether now... AWWWWWWWW!!! Now is he sweet or what? hehe. And today when I went over his house to collect the wallet, inside the bag was a letter (really coolly written - it was done questionnaire style and I wish I could post it up here for everyone to see how sweet he is but it's rather private kan, hehe) and this thing he did back then - 2 heartshapes intertwined carved onto some thing lah. (I'm so bad at describing things, haha) I'm going to put it at my workplace and drool at the thought of this sweet guy. heehee.
Entry ni macam panjang eh. It's 11.14pm now. TAK TAHU NAK BALIK KE!!
Nvm I shall end this now and call him. Who cares if I come off as a demanding gf. hurhur. I demand demand demand his time so I can talk to him now now now.
psycho lah.
hehehehehe.
goodnight you all. muchos loveos.
Then he went off to meet his friend.
I am now at home, bathed, watched TV, and now updating my blog.
Feeling rather tired and I think I shall go to sleep after blogging. I dont even know why I am blogging now. Boredom perhaps... while waiting for him to come back coz I want to talk to him for a while before I sleep.
Finished reading Jane Green's The Other Woman already. Very fast eh? I'm quite impressed with myself actually, haha. Spent last night and morning's train ride and the whole of lunchtime - 2 hours - today reading it and now I'm done. Tomorrow starting on Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel. I like reading books about depression, schizos, all these mental probs stuff. One of the best ones so far is "The Quiet Room" but I forgot who's the author. True story, and very moving. Go find it at the library.
"The Little Prince", although not about mental probs, is also a good book - go find it at Kino or something.
Btw, Kak Ana, I used the vouchers already tau... I bought the 2 books mentioned above, total cost $48 so I had to top up $8... and I used the $10 to buy Tuesdays with Morrie the other time... so thanks a lot. Because of you, I now am richer by 3 books. Hehe. Nak pinjam? Bilang ajer, I'll pass to u. (that goes for anyone here also. nak pinjam, email me or something..)
Mazreen's been wanting to read the "5 people You Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom but I don't think he'll ever finish it coz I dont think the book is something he thinks it is. heh. That book is also the book that he saw me reading in the train the last time we saw each other before we got to know each other all over again. hehehe.
Oh I'm so bored I'm probably going to just blog crap. I hope Jane Green is writing a new book with penuh semangat coz I already read all her books and need new ones already. I think for the record, I have 4 of her 6 books - the one I dont have is Jemima J and Bookends... borrowed them from the library instead.
Ok, update on the SGH thing. I thought it wasn't necessary to take the medication already, pasal IT has stopped... sekali it started again dah tadi. I'm so pissed off. Meaning now I got to take the medication kan.... and the appointment's next week!! I won't have enough time to gauge if I'm ok or not.
Ye I know I'm not a doctor, I can't know for sure if I'm ok or not.... but... haiyah. It's just so annoying lah. Anyhoos I'm going to.. yups.. postpone it again. hurhur. Sekali by the time I finally turn up for the appointment, the MO that attended to me dah dapat his Professorship (do they call it Professorship??) already eh. (that's like an eg to show how long it can be to the next appt.. hehe. bad example though, i admit.)
I just realized I'm bad at killing mosquitoes. there's one in my room right now and I clapped my hands over it real damn hard.. feeling ultra satisfied it's now squashed dead on my palm.
.... Sekali tengok benda tu tengah terbang-terbang still.. albeit a bit further away from me now. I feel like such a failure. I can't even kill mosquitoes.
hahahaha. that last 2 statements is added for drama effects ajer. I dont feel like a failure lah. I know I'm good at other things.
One of the best things M said to me ever, "I lurp you coz you are so determined to do what you have to do." altogether now... AWWWWWWWW!!! Now is he sweet or what? hehe. And today when I went over his house to collect the wallet, inside the bag was a letter (really coolly written - it was done questionnaire style and I wish I could post it up here for everyone to see how sweet he is but it's rather private kan, hehe) and this thing he did back then - 2 heartshapes intertwined carved onto some thing lah. (I'm so bad at describing things, haha) I'm going to put it at my workplace and drool at the thought of this sweet guy. heehee.
Entry ni macam panjang eh. It's 11.14pm now. TAK TAHU NAK BALIK KE!!
Nvm I shall end this now and call him. Who cares if I come off as a demanding gf. hurhur. I demand demand demand his time so I can talk to him now now now.
psycho lah.
hehehehehe.
goodnight you all. muchos loveos.
9/29/2004 10:50:00 pm | Permalink |
ok before I was rudely interrupted by a phone call last night, hehe, I was talking about the kain. It's pretty. Nothing else to say about the kain.. nanti Hari Raya boleh tengok.
Argument's resolved. It was actually about his friend's gf, who was looking for a job... and Farah said there was a vacancy at her place, so I called his friend's gf (let's call her Madu - hurhur) and asked if she was looking for a job. Before that I called Mazreen up but he didn't answer the call... so I just straight called Madu lah. She said she haven't found a job yet, the law firm hasn't replied to her. So I said at my friend's workplace ada vacancy, so if u want... she asked at where, etc... and I told her I will sms her the email add, and she must send in the resume and cover letter today. Dah hang up and all, I sms her, with another reminder, send in the resume and cover letter today coz Farah said she needs it by today. (meaning yesterday afternoon lah - 28 Sept)
I spent the rest of the afternoon at Arab Street etc... And then M called me back, and so I told him I called Madu up. He was surprised, said no need to do that. I asked why. He said they broke up already. I asked why he didn't tell me. He said they are like, broke up but on friendly terms. In fact when I called they were out together. Something like that. Ohkay, I dont faham that but whatever lah kan. Not my problem. As long as she sends in the resume.
At night when I was talking to Mazreen on the phone, he said he met Madu's bf, meaning his close friend, under his block. Madu's bf said she hasn't sent in the resume... they were out. I was so pissed off although I admit it has nothing to do with me. But I made an effort didn't I to help you find a job. And I did say it was important to send it in by today didn't I? I get so pissed off with these kind of people tau.... orang dah baik-baik tolong cari kerja, you get off your ass and do the necessary things lah.
(M just called saying he doesn't have to go back to camp this weekend :)
anyways. to continue my rantings. I'm so pissed off lah with Madu (the nick is funny, hahaa) I'm pissed off with the fact that I tried to help coz I know how irritating and saddening it can be when you are jobless... and yet Madu can just happily not make an effort.
Macam mana melayu nak maju.
(hehehe, takder kena-mengena ah that statement with anything else.)
So dah, I'm done helping Mazreen's friends' gfs find jobs. This is not my first time helping someone and them being this way... it irritates me so much tau.
What this has to do with me and M having an argument... is that... he said I shdn't get upset, that they were out tak kan nak balik just to submit an application ... something like that. I got so annoyed then, why is he siding them. Kenapa cannot see things from my point of view ni? Etc etc etc.
It's all ok now of course, but I was pissed off last night.
He told me to come over his house tonight, if he's coming home late... To take the wallet that I'm supposed to change for him and he made something for me so I'm supposed to come collect since we can't meet up. Asked him what it was numerous times but he wouldn't tell.
Anyways, if he comes home early then I no need to go his house, he could come fetch me instead and we go TM together. For the past 2 days he been coming home at about 10pm, so we haven't met up for.. well, 2 days already.
(Atomic Kitten's Cradle - or something like that - is on radio now. so best this song. I think their voice is nice. heheh)
--
Now I shall go to the bank.
Argument's resolved. It was actually about his friend's gf, who was looking for a job... and Farah said there was a vacancy at her place, so I called his friend's gf (let's call her Madu - hurhur) and asked if she was looking for a job. Before that I called Mazreen up but he didn't answer the call... so I just straight called Madu lah. She said she haven't found a job yet, the law firm hasn't replied to her. So I said at my friend's workplace ada vacancy, so if u want... she asked at where, etc... and I told her I will sms her the email add, and she must send in the resume and cover letter today. Dah hang up and all, I sms her, with another reminder, send in the resume and cover letter today coz Farah said she needs it by today. (meaning yesterday afternoon lah - 28 Sept)
I spent the rest of the afternoon at Arab Street etc... And then M called me back, and so I told him I called Madu up. He was surprised, said no need to do that. I asked why. He said they broke up already. I asked why he didn't tell me. He said they are like, broke up but on friendly terms. In fact when I called they were out together. Something like that. Ohkay, I dont faham that but whatever lah kan. Not my problem. As long as she sends in the resume.
At night when I was talking to Mazreen on the phone, he said he met Madu's bf, meaning his close friend, under his block. Madu's bf said she hasn't sent in the resume... they were out. I was so pissed off although I admit it has nothing to do with me. But I made an effort didn't I to help you find a job. And I did say it was important to send it in by today didn't I? I get so pissed off with these kind of people tau.... orang dah baik-baik tolong cari kerja, you get off your ass and do the necessary things lah.
(M just called saying he doesn't have to go back to camp this weekend :)
anyways. to continue my rantings. I'm so pissed off lah with Madu (the nick is funny, hahaa) I'm pissed off with the fact that I tried to help coz I know how irritating and saddening it can be when you are jobless... and yet Madu can just happily not make an effort.
Macam mana melayu nak maju.
(hehehe, takder kena-mengena ah that statement with anything else.)
So dah, I'm done helping Mazreen's friends' gfs find jobs. This is not my first time helping someone and them being this way... it irritates me so much tau.
What this has to do with me and M having an argument... is that... he said I shdn't get upset, that they were out tak kan nak balik just to submit an application ... something like that. I got so annoyed then, why is he siding them. Kenapa cannot see things from my point of view ni? Etc etc etc.
It's all ok now of course, but I was pissed off last night.
He told me to come over his house tonight, if he's coming home late... To take the wallet that I'm supposed to change for him and he made something for me so I'm supposed to come collect since we can't meet up. Asked him what it was numerous times but he wouldn't tell.
Anyways, if he comes home early then I no need to go his house, he could come fetch me instead and we go TM together. For the past 2 days he been coming home at about 10pm, so we haven't met up for.. well, 2 days already.
(Atomic Kitten's Cradle - or something like that - is on radio now. so best this song. I think their voice is nice. heheh)
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Now I shall go to the bank.
9/29/2004 10:17:00 am | Permalink |
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
right now me and M are on pissed off mode with each other... i'm waiting for him to take the first step and call me first.. if he doesn't call by the time im done updating my blog, then I guess I'll call him. tsk.
today i was on halfday leave. very unplanned actually. My mom is going JB tomorrow with my dad and she'll be singgah-ing at the tailor sekali, so since I haven't bought any kain for hari raya, I took halfday to go Arab Street with her. Semalam went to JooChiat actually, at night, but their kain weren't really what I wanted. Went Arab Street and bought something similar to what I had in mind.... and lepas dah beli, si Aisyah said it looks like baju orang kawin. Of all things. It's not actually .... it's really simple blue and all that.
(woot, he called!!)
continue later.
today i was on halfday leave. very unplanned actually. My mom is going JB tomorrow with my dad and she'll be singgah-ing at the tailor sekali, so since I haven't bought any kain for hari raya, I took halfday to go Arab Street with her. Semalam went to JooChiat actually, at night, but their kain weren't really what I wanted. Went Arab Street and bought something similar to what I had in mind.... and lepas dah beli, si Aisyah said it looks like baju orang kawin. Of all things. It's not actually .... it's really simple blue and all that.
(woot, he called!!)
continue later.
9/28/2004 10:55:00 pm | Permalink |
Monday, September 27, 2004
M just sms me saying his NS friend is getting married 2 months after he finish NS. Hantaran $6000. Then he added, kalau you boleh $6000 ajer bagus eh. (my parents want market rate (-sigh-) So I asked him back, how his friend get the money? Coz if it's from the parents, then for what right. He said the friend don't always go out with the tunang so they save a lot of money.
I replied back saying from now on we shall not go out and we will write letter ajer so save hp money also. he replied, shall we try go out once every 2 weeks? Then he added, But I dont think we can.. a few minutes part ajer dah miss each other. hahah.
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I'm going to be 22 in 5 months.
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ok im suddenly feeling mcm emo like that, i dunno why. i want to cry.
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i went to Kino at Taka during lunch and bought Jane Green's "The Other Woman" and Prozac Nation by some author. Took cab there and went back to office taking train. Cab driver was talking about ERPs and how its important for cab drivers to know shortcuts to avoid ERPs.. and how people complain about ERP charges. Sigh. I empathise and sympathise and everythingthise, Uncle, I really do. But I would complain more about the COE and petrol costs and parking.
Hyundai Trajet only $84K ok... sampai my dad got suspicious, why they giving out so many COEs at cheap price somemore. $84K for a trajet ok.. dulu it was about $95K.
Was chatting with Shakirah, she suggested renting out my car for extra income.. I wdn't mind that lor. Not sure what will be my parents' opinions though - if i tell them, then they will surely say no need and offer to pay or something.. and then I would feel bad. sigh. Falee rented out his car to his friends last time.. I should be able to do that too. I'll think more and more and more about this, but thanks Shakirah for the suggestion :)
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Perhaps M can rent out his vespa and TZM for extra income also?
sigh.
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ok now I need suggestions on how a guy serving NS can raise $10K in one year.
I replied back saying from now on we shall not go out and we will write letter ajer so save hp money also. he replied, shall we try go out once every 2 weeks? Then he added, But I dont think we can.. a few minutes part ajer dah miss each other. hahah.
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I'm going to be 22 in 5 months.
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ok im suddenly feeling mcm emo like that, i dunno why. i want to cry.
--
i went to Kino at Taka during lunch and bought Jane Green's "The Other Woman" and Prozac Nation by some author. Took cab there and went back to office taking train. Cab driver was talking about ERPs and how its important for cab drivers to know shortcuts to avoid ERPs.. and how people complain about ERP charges. Sigh. I empathise and sympathise and everythingthise, Uncle, I really do. But I would complain more about the COE and petrol costs and parking.
Hyundai Trajet only $84K ok... sampai my dad got suspicious, why they giving out so many COEs at cheap price somemore. $84K for a trajet ok.. dulu it was about $95K.
Was chatting with Shakirah, she suggested renting out my car for extra income.. I wdn't mind that lor. Not sure what will be my parents' opinions though - if i tell them, then they will surely say no need and offer to pay or something.. and then I would feel bad. sigh. Falee rented out his car to his friends last time.. I should be able to do that too. I'll think more and more and more about this, but thanks Shakirah for the suggestion :)
--
Perhaps M can rent out his vespa and TZM for extra income also?
sigh.
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ok now I need suggestions on how a guy serving NS can raise $10K in one year.
9/27/2004 02:42:00 pm | Permalink |
My langit-langit (the upper part of the inside of your mouth) hurts. I can even taste blood sometimes. tsk. I been drinking loads of water, coz my mom said it is caused by lack of water, and i tell u, at this rate I'll be peeing every 5 seconds tau.
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Was woken up by M so many times this morning - at 7am, at 7.15am, 7.35am, and I think at 8 he called again. It's so hard to wake up in the early morning you know. And he sms me then, if you get to the office by 9 i'll buy you a pair of shoes. Woot, terus terbangun and went to bathe all. Not that I'll be in time for 9am, but I thought I could bargain with him a bit. so he said see the next 4 days if I wake up early and be in office by 915am, he'll get me a pair of shoes. what a good motivator kan :) and it doesn't even have anything to do with him.. what a sweet guy. hehe.
We went to Plaza Sing on Saturday, watched movie, walked around (do u realize their toilets are always full of people? M always ask if I'm breaking when I come out of the toilet) X:odus (sp?) has quite pretty shoes - their flat ballerina style brown shoe with dragonish motif (it looks like flowers!) is so cool, but I didn't buy coz I think its the kind that will make my feet get blisters. We went to Carrefour, had a bet before that - he said there's Carrefour at B2, I said it's only at 1st floor. Coz I didn't see any on B1, u see. Sekali this carrefour apparently is on B1 and level 1, skipping B1. aper sajer right. I lost the bet, so I have to get him an Xbox game below $50. If I had won, he needed to get me shoes below $50. but anyhoo, we went Carrefour, bought stuff for my house - toilet cleaning products as usual, shampoo, deodorant, chocolates, tissue boxes, etc. Was fun :) total spending at Carrefour = abt $70.
Parking costs $7 for about 4 to 5 hours. I top up petrol before that, from half to full tank = $60. boleh nangis i tell u. top up cashcard = $20.
Need to go JB soon la, for Pizza Hut. M thinks its a waste to go Pizza Hut here, and no matter how much I pleaded with him to go on Sat, he still didn't want to. Financial planning, he said.
Sunday, he was on guard duty, and I went out with parents to Jurong Pt, had lunch there and went to John Little with Aisyah, bought undies macam as if they going to be out of stock soon or something tau. Aisyah bought 12 (hahahahahaha *private joke*) and I bought 9. There was this pretty BeeDees ones or something ah, hot pink and it apparently supports your butt or something -- $30. mahal kan so tak jadi beli.
Bought lunch for Mazreen from Banquet - mixed doner kebab and carrot cake and we sent it over to his khatib camp. He came out in his uniform and hat thing (not sure what it's called, beret perhaps?) and he look so gorgeousliciousmicious i tell u. even my mom said he looked cute, hahah. He came out and salam my parents, talk to them a bit, and then came over to me and talked to me for a while tapi Liza was there so mcm cannot talk a lot - sigh - and then he went back in. U know the feeling when u part with someone? Mcm got this heavy feeling like that... *feeling melodrama* - sigh again -
Anyways. After the touching scene at Khatib camp (hehe) we went to Mustaffa and then to Serangoon Gardens to eat roti john, and then home. Lazed around, read papers, slept, woke up at about 10 to play scrabble online and reversi online, and then at 11 he called and we talked til 11.50 and then he had to continue his guard duty so we hung up and I went to sleep. At 1.35am he called again but I don't remember anything about that convo, but this morning when I was re-reading my sms, he apparently sms me "sorry beb disturb you early in the morning, but I miss your voice. I'm sorry." So cute lah. hehehehee.
It looks like it's going to rain la. I hope not seh, I want to go Bugis during lunch - to get the new Jane Green book which I saw at Times on Saturday, but decided to buy at Kino instead since I still have the voucher that KakAnaBijal gave for my bday.. And I want to lunch at McDonalds la. And I want to buy shoes ah... and Bugis has really pretty ones sometimes. Can I have a 3 hour lunch break? hehe.
Shall sit around now with my painful langit-langit.
and it has started to rain.
--
after much consideration and discussion with the parents, I decided to stay with the waja. Sayang sangat to sell, plus I just need to do better financial planning. Insya'Allah things can work out great lah, financially.
--
Was woken up by M so many times this morning - at 7am, at 7.15am, 7.35am, and I think at 8 he called again. It's so hard to wake up in the early morning you know. And he sms me then, if you get to the office by 9 i'll buy you a pair of shoes. Woot, terus terbangun and went to bathe all. Not that I'll be in time for 9am, but I thought I could bargain with him a bit. so he said see the next 4 days if I wake up early and be in office by 915am, he'll get me a pair of shoes. what a good motivator kan :) and it doesn't even have anything to do with him.. what a sweet guy. hehe.
We went to Plaza Sing on Saturday, watched movie, walked around (do u realize their toilets are always full of people? M always ask if I'm breaking when I come out of the toilet) X:odus (sp?) has quite pretty shoes - their flat ballerina style brown shoe with dragonish motif (it looks like flowers!) is so cool, but I didn't buy coz I think its the kind that will make my feet get blisters. We went to Carrefour, had a bet before that - he said there's Carrefour at B2, I said it's only at 1st floor. Coz I didn't see any on B1, u see. Sekali this carrefour apparently is on B1 and level 1, skipping B1. aper sajer right. I lost the bet, so I have to get him an Xbox game below $50. If I had won, he needed to get me shoes below $50. but anyhoo, we went Carrefour, bought stuff for my house - toilet cleaning products as usual, shampoo, deodorant, chocolates, tissue boxes, etc. Was fun :) total spending at Carrefour = abt $70.
Parking costs $7 for about 4 to 5 hours. I top up petrol before that, from half to full tank = $60. boleh nangis i tell u. top up cashcard = $20.
Need to go JB soon la, for Pizza Hut. M thinks its a waste to go Pizza Hut here, and no matter how much I pleaded with him to go on Sat, he still didn't want to. Financial planning, he said.
Sunday, he was on guard duty, and I went out with parents to Jurong Pt, had lunch there and went to John Little with Aisyah, bought undies macam as if they going to be out of stock soon or something tau. Aisyah bought 12 (hahahahahaha *private joke*) and I bought 9. There was this pretty BeeDees ones or something ah, hot pink and it apparently supports your butt or something -- $30. mahal kan so tak jadi beli.
Bought lunch for Mazreen from Banquet - mixed doner kebab and carrot cake and we sent it over to his khatib camp. He came out in his uniform and hat thing (not sure what it's called, beret perhaps?) and he look so gorgeousliciousmicious i tell u. even my mom said he looked cute, hahah. He came out and salam my parents, talk to them a bit, and then came over to me and talked to me for a while tapi Liza was there so mcm cannot talk a lot - sigh - and then he went back in. U know the feeling when u part with someone? Mcm got this heavy feeling like that... *feeling melodrama* - sigh again -
Anyways. After the touching scene at Khatib camp (hehe) we went to Mustaffa and then to Serangoon Gardens to eat roti john, and then home. Lazed around, read papers, slept, woke up at about 10 to play scrabble online and reversi online, and then at 11 he called and we talked til 11.50 and then he had to continue his guard duty so we hung up and I went to sleep. At 1.35am he called again but I don't remember anything about that convo, but this morning when I was re-reading my sms, he apparently sms me "sorry beb disturb you early in the morning, but I miss your voice. I'm sorry." So cute lah. hehehehee.
It looks like it's going to rain la. I hope not seh, I want to go Bugis during lunch - to get the new Jane Green book which I saw at Times on Saturday, but decided to buy at Kino instead since I still have the voucher that KakAnaBijal gave for my bday.. And I want to lunch at McDonalds la. And I want to buy shoes ah... and Bugis has really pretty ones sometimes. Can I have a 3 hour lunch break? hehe.
Shall sit around now with my painful langit-langit.
and it has started to rain.
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after much consideration and discussion with the parents, I decided to stay with the waja. Sayang sangat to sell, plus I just need to do better financial planning. Insya'Allah things can work out great lah, financially.
9/27/2004 10:23:00 am | Permalink |
Saturday, September 25, 2004
am on MSN with fiq at the moment, and he's asking me to meet him for tea today.. Asked him if tea will be at Fullerton, coz he likes the tea there, plus the last time we went to Fullerton was about 2 years back (!! so lama...) then he say if i want to belanja. No, i dont want to. I got plans today.
.. which, honestly I dont really have any la. Mazreen hasn't confirmed what time he's coming home today, and he's being nice, asking me out, saying we can watch whatever movie I want, coz I got pissed off with him last night and this morning... I'm not trying to get my hopes up high, I want to go out today la with him, but we all know how the army can be such an annoyance...
(slight digression. I just received a phone call -workrelated - from a person who sounded exactly like Grace. For a moment I was surprised, kenapa si Grace call my workplace.. hehe)
... (to continue what I was saying just now)... and they can happily keep him til next week if they wanted to, right. (that's an exaggeration, but then u never know with the army, heh) Plus if he's tired, I dont really want to go out with him then, better to just let him sleep at home as he's so fond of doing...
Do I sound like a non-understanding person? sigh. it's just that im not in NS, I dunno how tired he can get... I'm working myself and i get tired too, but do I take it out on him? I don't. Sometimes I'm so tired I would rather talk to him and listen to him talk than sleep.
But then that's me.. For him, when he's tired he would almost switch off and sleep. And then I would get pissed off, and then he would say why can't I be more understanding. neverendingcycle.
I just hope we meeting up later.
.. which, honestly I dont really have any la. Mazreen hasn't confirmed what time he's coming home today, and he's being nice, asking me out, saying we can watch whatever movie I want, coz I got pissed off with him last night and this morning... I'm not trying to get my hopes up high, I want to go out today la with him, but we all know how the army can be such an annoyance...
(slight digression. I just received a phone call -workrelated - from a person who sounded exactly like Grace. For a moment I was surprised, kenapa si Grace call my workplace.. hehe)
... (to continue what I was saying just now)... and they can happily keep him til next week if they wanted to, right. (that's an exaggeration, but then u never know with the army, heh) Plus if he's tired, I dont really want to go out with him then, better to just let him sleep at home as he's so fond of doing...
Do I sound like a non-understanding person? sigh. it's just that im not in NS, I dunno how tired he can get... I'm working myself and i get tired too, but do I take it out on him? I don't. Sometimes I'm so tired I would rather talk to him and listen to him talk than sleep.
But then that's me.. For him, when he's tired he would almost switch off and sleep. And then I would get pissed off, and then he would say why can't I be more understanding. neverendingcycle.
I just hope we meeting up later.
9/25/2004 10:12:00 am | Permalink |
Friday, September 24, 2004
Farah did below survey for me....
01. Who are you, what's our relationship: Farah, long-lost, very very very far-distance twin sisters..haha..
02. How and where did we meet: ermmm..u sat in FRONT of me in sec 1 in TKGS..can i repeat that again..u sat IN FRONT of me..hahaha..
03. What's my middle name: Mazda..(u wish!)
04. How long have you known me: 8 years! omg..that's long!
05. Tell me one good thing about myself: you can go all out (till it becomes psycho!) for to make pple feel special..
06. When you first saw me what was your impression: you ellesse watch..haha..no la..how becok you are..
07. My age: 21yrs, 7mths & 3 weeks...detailed eh?
08. Birthday: 03/02/1983
09. My favorite band at the moment: Band Aid...hahahaha
10. Color eyes: Can we talk abt the black specs pls....? hehehe..brown eyes..
11. Do i have any siblings: yes. 3 (aisyah & liza)
12. Have you ever had a crush on me: Yes..all the time..we alwez do each other..
13. What's one of my favorite things to do: *censored* (hehe)
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you: "Hi, I'm shida"..haha..i know it was an introduction..not sure wad exactly..
15. Describe me in 3 words: quirky, passionate, dramaqueen
16. Name 5 things i love: Mazreen, Mazreen, Mazreen, Mazreen & PARU *winks*!
17. Do you think i'm good looking(be honest): with the black specs, YES! (someONE remembered u clearly by tt..haha)
18. How would you describe me to someone: (to a guy) She's attached. too bad. (to a gurlZ) she's a great fren. listens and of cos, great to guy-watch with.
19. Would you ever date me: yes. if she goes for a hormone jab, attach a dick, remove her breasts.
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: you alwez get the guys. (in sec sch of cos)
21: What do you like most about me: yr semangat-ness
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do: watch a movie, slack, gossip and shop. and talk abt bfs and more
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight: omg..numerous times..(remembers the ameer fight..how lame were we..haha)
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years: ermmm...stupid ques..we hv been frens for 8 years already!!
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. yabejegong. you look like one. hahahaha
26. What do you think my weakness is? thinking too much b4 doing the deed..go with the flow babe!
27. Do you think I'll get married? Duh...obviously
28. What makes me happy? Mazreen
29. What makes me sad? Mazreen
30. What reminds you of me? too many things..we share a lot..not bfs of cos
31. If you could give me anything what would it be? money? so u and M can get married..then i can sibuk sibuk
32. When's the last time you saw me? ermm..to watch that RA show..am i rite? eh..or was it gelare?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? STRONGER...boleh angkat weights now..ahaha
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? YES. esp abt marriage and bf-related stuff
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you? we r emailing each other instead
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why? Vanilla. cuz u alwez claim u are pure..haha
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? All my LIfe- K-ci & Jojo (nyeh nyeh nyeh)
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? nothing. i luv u for u.
39. Would you make a move on me? i have. and i succeeded as the lesbo partner
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? on weekdays yes..on weekends yes too..hahha
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past present and future what would it be? actually nothing. i believe our frenship has grown over the years bcuz of all the things we went thru together...it sounds like we are a couple..hehe..
01. Who are you, what's our relationship: Farah, long-lost, very very very far-distance twin sisters..haha..
02. How and where did we meet: ermmm..u sat in FRONT of me in sec 1 in TKGS..can i repeat that again..u sat IN FRONT of me..hahaha..
03. What's my middle name: Mazda..(u wish!)
04. How long have you known me: 8 years! omg..that's long!
05. Tell me one good thing about myself: you can go all out (till it becomes psycho!) for to make pple feel special..
06. When you first saw me what was your impression: you ellesse watch..haha..no la..how becok you are..
07. My age: 21yrs, 7mths & 3 weeks...detailed eh?
08. Birthday: 03/02/1983
09. My favorite band at the moment: Band Aid...hahahaha
10. Color eyes: Can we talk abt the black specs pls....? hehehe..brown eyes..
11. Do i have any siblings: yes. 3 (aisyah & liza)
12. Have you ever had a crush on me: Yes..all the time..we alwez do each other..
13. What's one of my favorite things to do: *censored* (hehe)
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you: "Hi, I'm shida"..haha..i know it was an introduction..not sure wad exactly..
15. Describe me in 3 words: quirky, passionate, dramaqueen
16. Name 5 things i love: Mazreen, Mazreen, Mazreen, Mazreen & PARU *winks*!
17. Do you think i'm good looking(be honest): with the black specs, YES! (someONE remembered u clearly by tt..haha)
18. How would you describe me to someone: (to a guy) She's attached. too bad. (to a gurlZ) she's a great fren. listens and of cos, great to guy-watch with.
19. Would you ever date me: yes. if she goes for a hormone jab, attach a dick, remove her breasts.
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: you alwez get the guys. (in sec sch of cos)
21: What do you like most about me: yr semangat-ness
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do: watch a movie, slack, gossip and shop. and talk abt bfs and more
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight: omg..numerous times..(remembers the ameer fight..how lame were we..haha)
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years: ermmm...stupid ques..we hv been frens for 8 years already!!
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. yabejegong. you look like one. hahahaha
26. What do you think my weakness is? thinking too much b4 doing the deed..go with the flow babe!
27. Do you think I'll get married? Duh...obviously
28. What makes me happy? Mazreen
29. What makes me sad? Mazreen
30. What reminds you of me? too many things..we share a lot..not bfs of cos
31. If you could give me anything what would it be? money? so u and M can get married..then i can sibuk sibuk
32. When's the last time you saw me? ermm..to watch that RA show..am i rite? eh..or was it gelare?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? STRONGER...boleh angkat weights now..ahaha
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? YES. esp abt marriage and bf-related stuff
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you? we r emailing each other instead
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why? Vanilla. cuz u alwez claim u are pure..haha
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? All my LIfe- K-ci & Jojo (nyeh nyeh nyeh)
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? nothing. i luv u for u.
39. Would you make a move on me? i have. and i succeeded as the lesbo partner
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? on weekdays yes..on weekends yes too..hahha
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past present and future what would it be? actually nothing. i believe our frenship has grown over the years bcuz of all the things we went thru together...it sounds like we are a couple..hehe..
9/24/2004 04:34:00 pm | Permalink |
Thursday, September 23, 2004
omg I just had a neardeath experience!
(those who dah dengar the cerita of course dont think so, but who cares, hehehe)
I went to Watsons at Amara and was walking back twds my office at the zebra crossing, when this car just zoom twds me without stopping. I thought he will stop when he came near enough but he just continued on. I was like stupid, frozen on the spot like that, and he emergency braked and did that hand thing drivers do when they aksyen they are in the right.
But he was in the wrong! He was at fault! It was a bloody zebra crossing (or at least it would have been bloody if he didn't stop just now and just knocked me down) and I had right of way. Idiot. I hope his car gets scratched a million times over. (...and thats from one driver to another ok)
I was so scared I straight away called Farah. Dunno why also. Probably in need of assurance that I'm alive and can make calls perhaps. hurhur. Seriously, I was scared. First time nearly kena knocked down.
(yeah yeah I'm making a big deal out of nothing.)
Omg. I guess this is how that girl feels the other day. When I was driving into my carpark and this girl didn't realise my car was coming and she was about to step off the pavement when M exclaimed there's a girl there and I nearly drove over her and she hastily jumped back onto the pavement. At that moment of course I told M that it was my right of way (which it was - there wasn't any zebra crossing) but now I know how she feels. Seram lah.
Bloody idiots, next time slow down at zebra crossings oK!! Ugh. I'm never going to cross at that zebra crossing anymore man.
*feeling dramamama*
(those who dah dengar the cerita of course dont think so, but who cares, hehehe)
I went to Watsons at Amara and was walking back twds my office at the zebra crossing, when this car just zoom twds me without stopping. I thought he will stop when he came near enough but he just continued on. I was like stupid, frozen on the spot like that, and he emergency braked and did that hand thing drivers do when they aksyen they are in the right.
But he was in the wrong! He was at fault! It was a bloody zebra crossing (or at least it would have been bloody if he didn't stop just now and just knocked me down) and I had right of way. Idiot. I hope his car gets scratched a million times over. (...and thats from one driver to another ok)
I was so scared I straight away called Farah. Dunno why also. Probably in need of assurance that I'm alive and can make calls perhaps. hurhur. Seriously, I was scared. First time nearly kena knocked down.
(yeah yeah I'm making a big deal out of nothing.)
Omg. I guess this is how that girl feels the other day. When I was driving into my carpark and this girl didn't realise my car was coming and she was about to step off the pavement when M exclaimed there's a girl there and I nearly drove over her and she hastily jumped back onto the pavement. At that moment of course I told M that it was my right of way (which it was - there wasn't any zebra crossing) but now I know how she feels. Seram lah.
Bloody idiots, next time slow down at zebra crossings oK!! Ugh. I'm never going to cross at that zebra crossing anymore man.
*feeling dramamama*
9/23/2004 05:36:00 pm | Permalink |
6pm - he called and said he could go back already, so what's the plan? so happy kan, so i also hurry2 switch off the pc and all, I wanted to be faster than him so I could wait for him under his block. At 6.35 he called again saying he's just about to move off from khatib camp, and I should time how long he will take to Tampines (coz I once told him he took such a long time on the vespa)
I reached Tampines already, and was walking through TM when he called again "moto I dah takder minyak. i'll be late."
"u kat mana?"
"expressway dah kat Pasir Ris, nak masuk Tampines ni"
"mcm mana u tak tahu minyak dah habis?"
I asked too many questions after that, and he got so pissed off (understandably, hahah) he hung up the phone on me. I thought mesti he will be in a bad mood and tired and all, so I decided to get something for him to cheer him up. Decided on the Fossil wallet he been talking about. I went to get that and bought a new paper to keep me company while waiting for him, and went walking to his house. Read new paper and then saw his brother's moto with Kak Yati.. then saw his moto. Went up togethergether to his house, he explained about his moto minyak and sppedometer and dunnowhatelse, gave him the wallet, he's pleasantly surprised i think, and then waited for him while he bathed and siap and all.
His nephew, Hail, so cute tau.. he's 3 this year i think. I was sitting on the floor with Kak Yati watching tv, then Kak Yati ask Hail what he looking at..
"tengok Aunty Shida". then he smile malu2 like that.
i was so touched, hehehe.
(Random info: Hail's baby sis, Trisya, birthday is one day after mine :)
then M dah siap, so we went out. Datang empty-handed, balik with pisang and all, which his parents nicely put into Isetan paperbag so konon mcm out shopping.. hehe. Went to TM & CS, he did his boots, took pasporte pics, went BK, and took bus home.
Simple outing but was so fun :)
I reached Tampines already, and was walking through TM when he called again "moto I dah takder minyak. i'll be late."
"u kat mana?"
"expressway dah kat Pasir Ris, nak masuk Tampines ni"
"mcm mana u tak tahu minyak dah habis?"
I asked too many questions after that, and he got so pissed off (understandably, hahah) he hung up the phone on me. I thought mesti he will be in a bad mood and tired and all, so I decided to get something for him to cheer him up. Decided on the Fossil wallet he been talking about. I went to get that and bought a new paper to keep me company while waiting for him, and went walking to his house. Read new paper and then saw his brother's moto with Kak Yati.. then saw his moto. Went up togethergether to his house, he explained about his moto minyak and sppedometer and dunnowhatelse, gave him the wallet, he's pleasantly surprised i think, and then waited for him while he bathed and siap and all.
His nephew, Hail, so cute tau.. he's 3 this year i think. I was sitting on the floor with Kak Yati watching tv, then Kak Yati ask Hail what he looking at..
"tengok Aunty Shida". then he smile malu2 like that.
i was so touched, hehehe.
(Random info: Hail's baby sis, Trisya, birthday is one day after mine :)
then M dah siap, so we went out. Datang empty-handed, balik with pisang and all, which his parents nicely put into Isetan paperbag so konon mcm out shopping.. hehe. Went to TM & CS, he did his boots, took pasporte pics, went BK, and took bus home.
Simple outing but was so fun :)
9/23/2004 01:31:00 pm | Permalink |
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
watched Titanic last night on channel5, and cried photobuckets of tears i tell u. I know a lot of people think its a kental story, but i think it's good lor. I like the whole melodramamama thing (altho I dont like Kate Winslet. Everytime I watch that, I have to comment why can't they pick Claire Danes instead... and Aisyah would then comment, "Kak Shida.. u say that everytime you watch this" heh. I really think so la, why Kate Winslet of all people??" And omg, she has yellow teeth, horrendousmorrendous yellow teeth. I mean, she's an actress for goodness sake, can't she fork out a few dollars for Simply White?? tsk.
but anyhoos. story was good. I watched the first quarter with Aisya, first half with Liza and Mama, and starting from 10 onwards I watched alone... which was good la, so no one wd laugh that I was crying along with whoever was crying on the boat. That Billy Zane is so good tau, he made me want to spit at him too. But u can see he somehow cares about Rose also... a bit the poor thing la he.
But of course the best and the cutest, Leonardo DiCaprio. sigh. we remember the days when I had the most humoungest (spelling?) crush on him... i would buy all those mags just to see his face etc. so when he died, alahai so sedih. Don't let go Rose.. prrrro*deepbreath*ooomise me that u won't let go Rose." "Oh i promise you Jack. I promise" *bares yellow teeth as proof of her promise*
heh. tak boleh tahan lah the yellow teeth.
and the guy who came back on the boat to see if there's any survivors, mcm touching like that also. love the accent baby.
i love Titanic. the movie i mean. Liza proclaim it her favourite movie, when she has never even watched it.
--
changed blogskin. purple for unknown reasons. and i thought it looked too plain without any images (like Farah commented) so I put up a tiny pic of me and M, which was the only one I could find on my work pc. I need to take more pics with him lah. We shall go posing2 ok, saturday kalau keluar I shall bring camera... if i remember.
Its never good to make plans tau, coz when it gets spoilt, you tend to get more disappointed than ever. I had plans with M to go Century Square tonight, he wants to do something with his boots and he needs to take a pic for his license, and we want to go BK eat since he hasn't been for a long time.
But he just sms me saying he might have to do guard duty tonight. Just when I had this whole elaborate plan of going straight to Tampines after work, go library first, and then since he will reach home at about 8, I will go over meet him at his block and we can then walk togethergether to TM. (ok lah not so elaborate, but u have to understand that I'm usually very lazy to walk anywhere... so making an effort to walk to his block is something ok.)
I hope he doesn't have to do guard duty tonight lah. It's times like these that just makes me wish that S'pore doesn't have NS, or they operate strictly office hours (i know its impossible) , coz it irritates me no end when my plans get spoiled. Tsk.
--
Idiot in the train this morning, leaned on the pole with his butt conveniently on my hand! I got so pissed off seh, wat, he think my hand cushion for his butt ke. Then he move right left right left on the pole reading his free newspaper, make people have angry only!! (heh, english grammar error is on purpose)
--
lunch time now. I want BK but im hoping i can eat that tonight.
I'm bored at work today but Mazreen is busy and so is Farah and I'm lazy to get up from my seat to venture to other people's desks for a chat.
I just realised I dont have a lot of clothes. And whatever I have, is mostly black or white or blue or brown.
--
Atomic Kitten "Whole Again" reminds me of my old workplace and Drew a lot. Not because he made me whole again la, but because the other time we were chattnig a lot, this song was my favourite.
Drew who's married now and probably on his Paris honeymoon and not replying my emails... too busy having sex eh? hur hur.
I either dreamt this or it really happened, im not sure. Aisyah and my mom told me that Cik Noi and Jay is coming down to s'pore. I think i dreamt it, but im really not sure. tsk.
--
this is a long blog entry about nothing.
but anyhoos. story was good. I watched the first quarter with Aisya, first half with Liza and Mama, and starting from 10 onwards I watched alone... which was good la, so no one wd laugh that I was crying along with whoever was crying on the boat. That Billy Zane is so good tau, he made me want to spit at him too. But u can see he somehow cares about Rose also... a bit the poor thing la he.
But of course the best and the cutest, Leonardo DiCaprio. sigh. we remember the days when I had the most humoungest (spelling?) crush on him... i would buy all those mags just to see his face etc. so when he died, alahai so sedih. Don't let go Rose.. prrrro*deepbreath*ooomise me that u won't let go Rose." "Oh i promise you Jack. I promise" *bares yellow teeth as proof of her promise*
heh. tak boleh tahan lah the yellow teeth.
and the guy who came back on the boat to see if there's any survivors, mcm touching like that also. love the accent baby.
i love Titanic. the movie i mean. Liza proclaim it her favourite movie, when she has never even watched it.
--
changed blogskin. purple for unknown reasons. and i thought it looked too plain without any images (like Farah commented) so I put up a tiny pic of me and M, which was the only one I could find on my work pc. I need to take more pics with him lah. We shall go posing2 ok, saturday kalau keluar I shall bring camera... if i remember.
Its never good to make plans tau, coz when it gets spoilt, you tend to get more disappointed than ever. I had plans with M to go Century Square tonight, he wants to do something with his boots and he needs to take a pic for his license, and we want to go BK eat since he hasn't been for a long time.
But he just sms me saying he might have to do guard duty tonight. Just when I had this whole elaborate plan of going straight to Tampines after work, go library first, and then since he will reach home at about 8, I will go over meet him at his block and we can then walk togethergether to TM. (ok lah not so elaborate, but u have to understand that I'm usually very lazy to walk anywhere... so making an effort to walk to his block is something ok.)
I hope he doesn't have to do guard duty tonight lah. It's times like these that just makes me wish that S'pore doesn't have NS, or they operate strictly office hours (i know its impossible) , coz it irritates me no end when my plans get spoiled. Tsk.
--
Idiot in the train this morning, leaned on the pole with his butt conveniently on my hand! I got so pissed off seh, wat, he think my hand cushion for his butt ke. Then he move right left right left on the pole reading his free newspaper, make people have angry only!! (heh, english grammar error is on purpose)
--
lunch time now. I want BK but im hoping i can eat that tonight.
I'm bored at work today but Mazreen is busy and so is Farah and I'm lazy to get up from my seat to venture to other people's desks for a chat.
I just realised I dont have a lot of clothes. And whatever I have, is mostly black or white or blue or brown.
--
Atomic Kitten "Whole Again" reminds me of my old workplace and Drew a lot. Not because he made me whole again la, but because the other time we were chattnig a lot, this song was my favourite.
Drew who's married now and probably on his Paris honeymoon and not replying my emails... too busy having sex eh? hur hur.
I either dreamt this or it really happened, im not sure. Aisyah and my mom told me that Cik Noi and Jay is coming down to s'pore. I think i dreamt it, but im really not sure. tsk.
--
this is a long blog entry about nothing.
9/22/2004 11:46:00 am | Permalink |
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Maroon 5 "this love" was playing on radio just now, and i was somehow reminded of the time when M had that stay-in-the-jungle-for-a-week thing before his POP of that BMT thing, and it was a torturous week without phone calls or even one sms at all. and how when he called on friday, at about 3pm, I was just so happy to hear his voice, I didn't think twice about saying whatever that needed to be said, even if it means the person sitting opposite me could hear. hehe.
there are of course many more memories to this song, all connected to M. But that was the one that came to mind just now.
--
We were supposed to meet up last night, but when I was in the train at Bedok, he called and I asked where he was, he said under his block, at the kedai kopi. Said I'm at bedok already, mana lah sempat for him to go simei in such a short time?? And he was surprised, "eh jadi jumpa? i thought tak jadi.. u gave me a choice what tadi.. u kata 7plus Simei, IF i wanted to come. i tak jadi datang la."
i got pissed off, and hung up the phone. Dah sampai Simei, I was walking, nearlysulking, towards the traffic light below the train track, and I heard his voice to my left..
"Ida. "
Turned and saw him. Terus mcm happy tersungguh. "Eh! What u doing here!" grin grin widely already.
Then it dawned on me (although by then it was dusk, heh) that he purposely lied to surprise me again. So I also aksyen balik, "dah lah, I nak balik lah.. kata tak nak jumpa.." but of course dah walking with him already. Haha.
Went home to take the car keys and then went down twds the car to go top up petrol ($20 ajer for the time being) Then he took a white helmet from a moto that look suspiciously like his.
"eh... kenapa moto you kat sini?"
Ya I wasn't thinking when the question came out from my mouth. What I meant was, bila his moto datang situ. Then I realised he must have came put his moto under my block, then walked from my block to the train station and waited there for me. So sweet la.
--
not only sweet. cute too. tall and gorgeous at that.
although yesterday I wore heels... so he wasn't as tall as he usually is. hehe.
--
lurpslurps.
there are of course many more memories to this song, all connected to M. But that was the one that came to mind just now.
--
We were supposed to meet up last night, but when I was in the train at Bedok, he called and I asked where he was, he said under his block, at the kedai kopi. Said I'm at bedok already, mana lah sempat for him to go simei in such a short time?? And he was surprised, "eh jadi jumpa? i thought tak jadi.. u gave me a choice what tadi.. u kata 7plus Simei, IF i wanted to come. i tak jadi datang la."
i got pissed off, and hung up the phone. Dah sampai Simei, I was walking, nearlysulking, towards the traffic light below the train track, and I heard his voice to my left..
"Ida. "
Turned and saw him. Terus mcm happy tersungguh. "Eh! What u doing here!" grin grin widely already.
Then it dawned on me (although by then it was dusk, heh) that he purposely lied to surprise me again. So I also aksyen balik, "dah lah, I nak balik lah.. kata tak nak jumpa.." but of course dah walking with him already. Haha.
Went home to take the car keys and then went down twds the car to go top up petrol ($20 ajer for the time being) Then he took a white helmet from a moto that look suspiciously like his.
"eh... kenapa moto you kat sini?"
Ya I wasn't thinking when the question came out from my mouth. What I meant was, bila his moto datang situ. Then I realised he must have came put his moto under my block, then walked from my block to the train station and waited there for me. So sweet la.
--
not only sweet. cute too. tall and gorgeous at that.
although yesterday I wore heels... so he wasn't as tall as he usually is. hehe.
--
lurpslurps.
9/21/2004 04:47:00 pm | Permalink |
Monday, September 20, 2004
ok i am so super bored that i have resorted to collecting all these questionnaires stuff sent from shahida and raihan on friendster and do them here. u dont have to read, its just for my own fun of doing them. haha.
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
cute = yeah :)
funny = of course
hot = no, cool.
friendly = no.
amusing = yes.
ugly = of course not. says a lot abt my self-esteem if i said yes eh.
lovable = entah.
caring = sometimes
sweet = sometimes
[FAVORITE...]
5 letter word = SHIDA. haha.
actor/actress = entah.. cant think of any at the moment.
class = dulu masa sekolah, it was E Maths.
cereal = Apple Jack. sold at Liberty only.
chewing gum = entah. Wrigleys?
color = white.
number combination = 311?
gay = tak faham, aper benda favourite gay?
day of week = saturday when im not working.
least fave day = mondays
flower = blood-red roses
jewelry = that soo kee bracelet. i think it would look so good on my wrist. hurhur.
[Person who last...]
slept in your bed = myself.
saw you cry = aisyah?
made you cry = myself? hahaha.
you went to the movies with = Mazreen.
sent you an email = Kak Ana.
[Have you ever...]
said "I love you" and meant it? = yes.
gone out in public in your pajamas? = no.
kept a secret from everyone = yes.
cried during a movie = of course.
planned your week based on the TV = yeah. like, there's Titanic tmrw on tv, so I dont want to go out with M, so today we shall meet ok.
been on stage = ya. primary school stage.
wished you were another gender = NO.
[This or that...]
apples or bananas = apple
blue or red = red
spring or fall = spring.
what are you gonna do after you finish this = do work? go for lunch?
what was the last meal you ate = my mother's leftover nasi goreng belancan beef from habibie last night.
last noise you heard = my colleague sneezing.
last smell you sniffed = Ambi Pur next to me.
[Friendship/Love]
do you believe in love at first sight = not really.
do you want children one day & if so, how many = 2 or 3 insya'Allah :))))
[Other Info]
criminal record = none.
do you speak any other language = malay.
last book you read = Jane Green but i forgot the title.
[You]
hangover = tak pernah.
how old do you look? = 20. haha.
how old do you act? = 30. hahahahaha.
glasses/contacts = contact lenses.
braces = no.
do you have any pets? = no.
what makes you happy = time spent with the family and with M. woop woop.
what upsets you = lack of money. lack of time. disagreements.
[Finish the sentence]
I Love = parents. sisters. Mazreen.
I Miss = Mazreen.
I Wish = things wd be easier with relation to some impt stuff. *sigh*.
I'm Annoyed with = the fact that everything involves money nowadays, even things that shouldn't.
I Want to be = a better,nicer, more understanding, more considerate person. haha.
I Would Never = entah.
I Am Tired of = waking up early.
1.Your name spelled backwards?
adihsrun
2. Where were your parents born?
singapore
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
dunno.
4. Last time you swam in a pool?
dunno.
5. Have you ever been in a school play?
yeah. pri 5 and 6.
6. How many kids do you want?
2 or 3. insya'Allah.
7. Type of music you dislike most?
Heavy Metal, the kind where everyone's just shouting.
8. Are you registered to vote?
i didn't know u got to register to vote!
9. Do you have cable?
yeah.
10. Have you ever ridden on a mop?
..
11. Ever prank call anybody?
masa sec sch.
12. Ever get a parking ticket?
at the moment, haven't.
13. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
skydiving.
14. Farthest place you ever traveled?
Mecca / Medina
15. Do you have a garden?
..
16. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
no. heh.
17. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
both both. dont mind either bath or shower, but usually i bath morning and night.
18. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
past month would have to be dodgeball?
19. Favorite pizza topping?
Mushroom.
20. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.
21. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
dont wear them.
22. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
huh?
23. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
no. i dont need to be in a pageant to know im beautiful. hahahah.
24. Orange Juice or apple juice?
Honeydew + Apple Juice
25. When and who was the last person u went out on a date?
Mazreen. on saturday.
26. Favorite type chocolate bar?
Cadbury's Fruit n Nuts
27. When was the last time you voted at the polls?
huh?
28. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
aper merepek dah.
29. Have you ever won a trophy?
yeah. pri school.
30. Are you a good cook?
no one has ever commented before. maybe because i never tried cooking before. haha.
31. Ever order an article from an infomercial?
no.
32. Sprite or 7-up?
Sprite
33. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
at cold storage last time.
34. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
MediJel. for mouth ulcers.
35. Ever thrown up in public?
at TKGS school porch.
36. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
true love.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
dunno.
38. Can exs be friends?
No.
39. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?
entah. Tinda most probably, last year or something?
40. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?
i dont think so.
41. what msg have u got on ur answering machine?
Dont have one..
42. What was the name of your first pet?
never had pets.
43. What is in your room?
bed, wardrobe, study table, computer, that hi-fi set thing, bookshelf of storybooks, newspapers, CDs, 2 chairs, one rug, shoes boxes i think in one corner of the room.
44. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
talk to M.
45. What is one thing you are grateful for?
can i state many things? to meet Mazreen again after a long time and to be with him coz he's so wonderful. for my family for being wonderful too. for the job - which altho i complain about a lot of times coz i got to wake up early to go work and all, its still rezeki which enabled me to buy the car and many other stuff. to have the good sense of mind to know that Islam is the true religion. to have good health at the moment.
--
01. My name is :
Nurshida Hussin.
02. I may seem :
Like some stuck up spoilt materialistic selfish girl
03. But I really :
am nice. and friendly sometimes. not materialistic at all. i think.
04. People who know me think :
im funny? think im cool? think im irritating? i dunno what they think.
05. If you knew me you'd think that I'm :
spoilt. haha. no la, u wd think im cool of course. u would want to be like me too. you would want to know how to achieve this state of shidaness.
06. Sometimes I feel :
like kicking or hitting people when they irritate me, esp those in the train who are so stupid and kiasu.
07. In the morning I :
want to sleep again.
08. I like to sleep :
til very late in the afternoon on a weekday.
09. If I could be doing anything right now it would be :
eating lemon chicken and kway teow goreng sakura.
10. Money :
shouldn't be as important as it is.
11. One thing I wish I had is :
money. haha.
12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't have is:
oily skin.
13. All you need is:
(to quote Shahida) someone who loves and appreciate you as you are.
14. All I need is :
(to quote her again) The love and attention from those who love me.
15. If I had one wish it would be:
to have at least $50k for myself and $50K for M.
16. Love is :
very complicated.
17. My body is :
gradually filling up with fats.
18. If an angel flew into my window at night I would :
be surprised.
19. If a demon crashed into my window at night I would :
be shocked.
20. If I could see one person right now it would be :
Mazreen.
21. Something I want but I don't really need is :
a fairytale wedding.
22. Something I need but I don't really want is :
Paying for petrol.
23. I live for :
(quote Shahida) Allah
24. I dare you all to:
sponsor my wedding and honeymoon.
25. I am afraid of :
losing u.
26. It makes me angry when :
People misunderstand me.
27. It makes me happy when :
we do silly things that are fun.
28. I daydream about :
too many things.
29. I am attracted to :
Mazreen.
30. I am unattracted to :
heh, a lot of people.
Put x's in the things you HAVE done or are true
Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot....
[X] kissed someone.
[X] rode in a taxi.
[ ] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] snuck out of your parent's home
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[?] stole something from your job/ workplace (Does pen count?)
[ ] celebrated new year in other country
[X] went on a blind date.
[X] lied to a friend.
[X] had a crush on a teacher. (ooooh yah i did)
[X] been to australia
[ ] been to europe
[X] skipped school /class
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[X] lost a family member
[X] lost a friend
[ ] played 'clue'
[X] had a sleepover party.
[X] went ice skating.
[?] cheated on a bf/gf.
[?] been cheated on.
[X] had a sweet sixteen.
[?] had ur tonsils out. (SOON PLEASE, SOON)
[X] had a car
[X] drove.
[X] rode on a bike
Do you...
[X] have a bf.
[X] have a gf. (farah? hehehe)
[ ] have a crush.
[X] feel loved.
[ ] feel lonely.
[X] feel happy. (At the moment, pissed off though)
[ ] hate yourself.
[X] think youre attractive.
[ ] have a dog
[X] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[X] listen to rap.
[X] listen to rock.
[X] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[X] paint your nails. (dulu terpernah. one or twice, toenails. dulu sec sch gatal, haha)
[ ] have more than 1 best friend.
[X] get good grades. (dulu masa sekolah. hahah. mcm betul seh)
[ ] play an instrument
[X] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[ ] wear black eyeliner.
[X] like the color blue.
[ ]like the color pink.
[ ]cyber.
[ ] claim.
[X] like to read.
[X] like to write.
[ ] have long hair
[X] have short hair
[X] have a cell phone /handphone
[ ] have a laptop
[ ] have a pager
Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[X] pretty. (of course. hahah)
[X] ok.
[ ] handsome.
[X] bored. (ultra very sungguh utterly)
[X]happy.
[X] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[ ] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[X] asian.
[ ] amerasian
[X] short.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad
[X] lazy.
[ ] single
[X] taken.
[ ] looking.
[X] not looking.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ]AIMing someone.
[X] scared to die.
[X] tired.
[X] sleepy.
[X] annoyed (majorly)
[X] hungry.
[X] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs
[X] ticklish.
[X] listening to music
[ ] watching tv
IM SO BORED. so annoyed too.
should i or should i not, call M and pick a fight?
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
cute = yeah :)
funny = of course
hot = no, cool.
friendly = no.
amusing = yes.
ugly = of course not. says a lot abt my self-esteem if i said yes eh.
lovable = entah.
caring = sometimes
sweet = sometimes
[FAVORITE...]
5 letter word = SHIDA. haha.
actor/actress = entah.. cant think of any at the moment.
class = dulu masa sekolah, it was E Maths.
cereal = Apple Jack. sold at Liberty only.
chewing gum = entah. Wrigleys?
color = white.
number combination = 311?
gay = tak faham, aper benda favourite gay?
day of week = saturday when im not working.
least fave day = mondays
flower = blood-red roses
jewelry = that soo kee bracelet. i think it would look so good on my wrist. hurhur.
[Person who last...]
slept in your bed = myself.
saw you cry = aisyah?
made you cry = myself? hahaha.
you went to the movies with = Mazreen.
sent you an email = Kak Ana.
[Have you ever...]
said "I love you" and meant it? = yes.
gone out in public in your pajamas? = no.
kept a secret from everyone = yes.
cried during a movie = of course.
planned your week based on the TV = yeah. like, there's Titanic tmrw on tv, so I dont want to go out with M, so today we shall meet ok.
been on stage = ya. primary school stage.
wished you were another gender = NO.
[This or that...]
apples or bananas = apple
blue or red = red
spring or fall = spring.
what are you gonna do after you finish this = do work? go for lunch?
what was the last meal you ate = my mother's leftover nasi goreng belancan beef from habibie last night.
last noise you heard = my colleague sneezing.
last smell you sniffed = Ambi Pur next to me.
[Friendship/Love]
do you believe in love at first sight = not really.
do you want children one day & if so, how many = 2 or 3 insya'Allah :))))
[Other Info]
criminal record = none.
do you speak any other language = malay.
last book you read = Jane Green but i forgot the title.
[You]
hangover = tak pernah.
how old do you look? = 20. haha.
how old do you act? = 30. hahahahaha.
glasses/contacts = contact lenses.
braces = no.
do you have any pets? = no.
what makes you happy = time spent with the family and with M. woop woop.
what upsets you = lack of money. lack of time. disagreements.
[Finish the sentence]
I Love = parents. sisters. Mazreen.
I Miss = Mazreen.
I Wish = things wd be easier with relation to some impt stuff. *sigh*.
I'm Annoyed with = the fact that everything involves money nowadays, even things that shouldn't.
I Want to be = a better,nicer, more understanding, more considerate person. haha.
I Would Never = entah.
I Am Tired of = waking up early.
1.Your name spelled backwards?
adihsrun
2. Where were your parents born?
singapore
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
dunno.
4. Last time you swam in a pool?
dunno.
5. Have you ever been in a school play?
yeah. pri 5 and 6.
6. How many kids do you want?
2 or 3. insya'Allah.
7. Type of music you dislike most?
Heavy Metal, the kind where everyone's just shouting.
8. Are you registered to vote?
i didn't know u got to register to vote!
9. Do you have cable?
yeah.
10. Have you ever ridden on a mop?
..
11. Ever prank call anybody?
masa sec sch.
12. Ever get a parking ticket?
at the moment, haven't.
13. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
skydiving.
14. Farthest place you ever traveled?
Mecca / Medina
15. Do you have a garden?
..
16. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
no. heh.
17. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
both both. dont mind either bath or shower, but usually i bath morning and night.
18. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
past month would have to be dodgeball?
19. Favorite pizza topping?
Mushroom.
20. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.
21. What color lipstick do you usually wear?
dont wear them.
22. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
huh?
23. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
no. i dont need to be in a pageant to know im beautiful. hahahah.
24. Orange Juice or apple juice?
Honeydew + Apple Juice
25. When and who was the last person u went out on a date?
Mazreen. on saturday.
26. Favorite type chocolate bar?
Cadbury's Fruit n Nuts
27. When was the last time you voted at the polls?
huh?
28. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
aper merepek dah.
29. Have you ever won a trophy?
yeah. pri school.
30. Are you a good cook?
no one has ever commented before. maybe because i never tried cooking before. haha.
31. Ever order an article from an infomercial?
no.
32. Sprite or 7-up?
Sprite
33. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
at cold storage last time.
34. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
MediJel. for mouth ulcers.
35. Ever thrown up in public?
at TKGS school porch.
36. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
true love.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
dunno.
38. Can exs be friends?
No.
39. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?
entah. Tinda most probably, last year or something?
40. Did you have a lot of hair when you were a baby?
i dont think so.
41. what msg have u got on ur answering machine?
Dont have one..
42. What was the name of your first pet?
never had pets.
43. What is in your room?
bed, wardrobe, study table, computer, that hi-fi set thing, bookshelf of storybooks, newspapers, CDs, 2 chairs, one rug, shoes boxes i think in one corner of the room.
44. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
talk to M.
45. What is one thing you are grateful for?
can i state many things? to meet Mazreen again after a long time and to be with him coz he's so wonderful. for my family for being wonderful too. for the job - which altho i complain about a lot of times coz i got to wake up early to go work and all, its still rezeki which enabled me to buy the car and many other stuff. to have the good sense of mind to know that Islam is the true religion. to have good health at the moment.
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01. My name is :
Nurshida Hussin.
02. I may seem :
Like some stuck up spoilt materialistic selfish girl
03. But I really :
am nice. and friendly sometimes. not materialistic at all. i think.
04. People who know me think :
im funny? think im cool? think im irritating? i dunno what they think.
05. If you knew me you'd think that I'm :
spoilt. haha. no la, u wd think im cool of course. u would want to be like me too. you would want to know how to achieve this state of shidaness.
06. Sometimes I feel :
like kicking or hitting people when they irritate me, esp those in the train who are so stupid and kiasu.
07. In the morning I :
want to sleep again.
08. I like to sleep :
til very late in the afternoon on a weekday.
09. If I could be doing anything right now it would be :
eating lemon chicken and kway teow goreng sakura.
10. Money :
shouldn't be as important as it is.
11. One thing I wish I had is :
money. haha.
12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't have is:
oily skin.
13. All you need is:
(to quote Shahida) someone who loves and appreciate you as you are.
14. All I need is :
(to quote her again) The love and attention from those who love me.
15. If I had one wish it would be:
to have at least $50k for myself and $50K for M.
16. Love is :
very complicated.
17. My body is :
gradually filling up with fats.
18. If an angel flew into my window at night I would :
be surprised.
19. If a demon crashed into my window at night I would :
be shocked.
20. If I could see one person right now it would be :
Mazreen.
21. Something I want but I don't really need is :
a fairytale wedding.
22. Something I need but I don't really want is :
Paying for petrol.
23. I live for :
(quote Shahida) Allah
24. I dare you all to:
sponsor my wedding and honeymoon.
25. I am afraid of :
losing u.
26. It makes me angry when :
People misunderstand me.
27. It makes me happy when :
we do silly things that are fun.
28. I daydream about :
too many things.
29. I am attracted to :
Mazreen.
30. I am unattracted to :
heh, a lot of people.
Put x's in the things you HAVE done or are true
Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot....
[X] kissed someone.
[X] rode in a taxi.
[ ] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] snuck out of your parent's home
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[?] stole something from your job/ workplace (Does pen count?)
[ ] celebrated new year in other country
[X] went on a blind date.
[X] lied to a friend.
[X] had a crush on a teacher. (ooooh yah i did)
[X] been to australia
[ ] been to europe
[X] skipped school /class
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[X] lost a family member
[X] lost a friend
[ ] played 'clue'
[X] had a sleepover party.
[X] went ice skating.
[?] cheated on a bf/gf.
[?] been cheated on.
[X] had a sweet sixteen.
[?] had ur tonsils out. (SOON PLEASE, SOON)
[X] had a car
[X] drove.
[X] rode on a bike
Do you...
[X] have a bf.
[X] have a gf. (farah? hehehe)
[ ] have a crush.
[X] feel loved.
[ ] feel lonely.
[X] feel happy. (At the moment, pissed off though)
[ ] hate yourself.
[X] think youre attractive.
[ ] have a dog
[X] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[X] listen to rap.
[X] listen to rock.
[X] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[X] paint your nails. (dulu terpernah. one or twice, toenails. dulu sec sch gatal, haha)
[ ] have more than 1 best friend.
[X] get good grades. (dulu masa sekolah. hahah. mcm betul seh)
[ ] play an instrument
[X] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[ ] wear black eyeliner.
[X] like the color blue.
[ ]like the color pink.
[ ]cyber.
[ ] claim.
[X] like to read.
[X] like to write.
[ ] have long hair
[X] have short hair
[X] have a cell phone /handphone
[ ] have a laptop
[ ] have a pager
Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[X] pretty. (of course. hahah)
[X] ok.
[ ] handsome.
[X] bored. (ultra very sungguh utterly)
[X]happy.
[X] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[ ] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[X] asian.
[ ] amerasian
[X] short.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad
[X] lazy.
[ ] single
[X] taken.
[ ] looking.
[X] not looking.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ]AIMing someone.
[X] scared to die.
[X] tired.
[X] sleepy.
[X] annoyed (majorly)
[X] hungry.
[X] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs
[X] ticklish.
[X] listening to music
[ ] watching tv
IM SO BORED. so annoyed too.
should i or should i not, call M and pick a fight?
9/20/2004 01:14:00 pm | Permalink |
today i arrived at work at exactly 9am.
yes, arrived at work at 9, not board the train at simei at 9 (which is what I usually do). all due to an email I received from the b.h.o.d. that lateness is not tolerated and whatnots.... tsk. as a result, I'm very sleepy (woke up at 7.35 instead of usual 8.15) and not very happy coz I didn't get a seat in the train. Mazreen is happily sleeping at home at the moment coz he's on MC for 2 days, yesterday and today - sore eyes.
--
i like (i would say love but I dont want to abuse that word) Tiziano Ferro & Jameliah's "Universal Prayer".
Woop woop. Na na na na.
--
friday - went to Marine Parade Hawker centre near Parkway.. for corn milk.
Saturday - met up at 9.30am. (supposed to meet at 9, but I think we both woke up late) Mazreen came to fetch me and then we took cab to Tampines Mall (wanted to take train, but I was under the mistaken assumation (hehehe) that the movie started at 10am so I thought that kalau naik train, mesti tak sempat... ) so anyways we realised that the movie started at 11, so we went for breakfast at Mcdonalds..
.. and i realised i got my period. of all days, i didn't bring the necessities so i had to leave M at Mcdonalds and rush to watsons and all that. and then i had to walk around carrying a stupid watsons bag for the whole day. so irritating seh, i was so irritated on that day about my stupidity in not being prepared when I knew it was due soon. so anyhoos, that aside, we went to watch "The Great Challenge" at TM GV - M said the movie was good and all that, he watched the first one, so he wants to watch the second one now or something la. It was a French movie - although in the beginning I got confused, I thought it was in Mandarin coz somehow their French sounds Mandarin-ish... and I had to ask M if it was in Mandarin or French. hahah. Sadly though, the French actors weren't cute. (the cutest would have to be the brother of the lead actress, I think his name is Kien) The way they speak (when it had started to sound French-ish) was cute though. Movie had no plot - I didn't understand the last part why they all decided to join in the fight between the 2 triads - but the fight scenes were quite good ah.
I got a bit funkified by their wantingtobecheem thing. "Let the wind move you" and other crap like that.
Then, after that movie, with aching bodies coz TM GV seats are so miniscule and uncomfortable and the aircon so terribly cold, we wondered what next to do... I didn't want to be walking around with that stupid watsons bag and since we weren't hungry yet although it was 1pm, I suggested watching another movie but at CS instead. So we went there... decided to watch Dodgeball.
(.. and now discussing the movie with Kak Ana. so funny lah the movie)
Ben Stiller is so funny. If i think back about some scenes, it can still make me laugh la. The movie was too short though, and the beginning isn't that funny... but the middle part onwards was.. starting from the scene at the pub when Ben Stiller introduced his players, "This is Blaze... This is Lazer.. This is Blazer." and the way he talks when it got confusing. kelakar la.
and according to Kak Ana, the guy who fell in love with the freaky woman is the guy in the Xelibri ads. funky eh.
so after the movie, went to KFC, had a fun time there :) then home at 4.30.
Lazed around, then watched Love,Actually for the millionth time with Aisyah. ended at 8 plus. Slept til 10. watched Coupling and The Office on StarTV or whatever - Channel 18. Coupling was quite good. The Office is quite funny. After that watched the Late Night Show with Jay Leno, where they interviewed the cute Matt LeBlanc, and then I slept.
Sunday - lazed around at home, played board games with my mom and sisters, went for jemputan, played more board games, read papers, watched Gilmore Girls, went to Habibie to buy food home, talked to M, had an argument with M. He sms apologies and asked out for dinner. Decided to ignore him. Played online Scrabble and then decided I hate arguing with M, so I called him at 10pm, talked til 12.35. Then slept.
He called this morning at 7.10 to wake me up.
He's so the best.
--
I had a fever on friday. I thought it was just plain flu, and my nose just wdn't stop running, so I went to Raffles Medical and the doctor took my temp and it was 38 degreeses (hehe) and she offered me MC but I thought since I was on leave on thursday, it wdn't be nice to take MC on friday pulak. Plus, I'll be on MC on the 7th of Oct and on leave on the 8th so mcm too often this whole MC / On Leave thing... so I declined the MC and the doctor said I might spread the germs to my colleagues and I said its ok. hahha. The thing was, I didn't feel sick.. so I didn't see a need for an MC.
I can't wait for saturday - payday. I'm so super broke.. $6 in my DBS and only $250 in my UOB (way below my self-promise that I should have at least enough for one month car payments + petrol = about $650 at least) and the waja has only 1/4 petrol on it. in fact, a bit lesser than that. And I dread going to top it up, coz mesti nanti cost a lot... $70 at least. sigh. My parents bought for me parking for oct til dec already, so I don't want to ask them to top up petrol and all lagi. So.... I shall go top up tonight.
Anyone who wants to offer to pay for my petrol, meet me at Shell near the old Changkat Changi Sec there tonight at about 7.30pm.
heh, a person can always live in hope.
--
Britney Spears married that Federline guy already on Sat!
yes, arrived at work at 9, not board the train at simei at 9 (which is what I usually do). all due to an email I received from the b.h.o.d. that lateness is not tolerated and whatnots.... tsk. as a result, I'm very sleepy (woke up at 7.35 instead of usual 8.15) and not very happy coz I didn't get a seat in the train. Mazreen is happily sleeping at home at the moment coz he's on MC for 2 days, yesterday and today - sore eyes.
--
i like (i would say love but I dont want to abuse that word) Tiziano Ferro & Jameliah's "Universal Prayer".
Woop woop. Na na na na.
--
friday - went to Marine Parade Hawker centre near Parkway.. for corn milk.
Saturday - met up at 9.30am. (supposed to meet at 9, but I think we both woke up late) Mazreen came to fetch me and then we took cab to Tampines Mall (wanted to take train, but I was under the mistaken assumation (hehehe) that the movie started at 10am so I thought that kalau naik train, mesti tak sempat... ) so anyways we realised that the movie started at 11, so we went for breakfast at Mcdonalds..
.. and i realised i got my period. of all days, i didn't bring the necessities so i had to leave M at Mcdonalds and rush to watsons and all that. and then i had to walk around carrying a stupid watsons bag for the whole day. so irritating seh, i was so irritated on that day about my stupidity in not being prepared when I knew it was due soon. so anyhoos, that aside, we went to watch "The Great Challenge" at TM GV - M said the movie was good and all that, he watched the first one, so he wants to watch the second one now or something la. It was a French movie - although in the beginning I got confused, I thought it was in Mandarin coz somehow their French sounds Mandarin-ish... and I had to ask M if it was in Mandarin or French. hahah. Sadly though, the French actors weren't cute. (the cutest would have to be the brother of the lead actress, I think his name is Kien) The way they speak (when it had started to sound French-ish) was cute though. Movie had no plot - I didn't understand the last part why they all decided to join in the fight between the 2 triads - but the fight scenes were quite good ah.
I got a bit funkified by their wantingtobecheem thing. "Let the wind move you" and other crap like that.
Then, after that movie, with aching bodies coz TM GV seats are so miniscule and uncomfortable and the aircon so terribly cold, we wondered what next to do... I didn't want to be walking around with that stupid watsons bag and since we weren't hungry yet although it was 1pm, I suggested watching another movie but at CS instead. So we went there... decided to watch Dodgeball.
(.. and now discussing the movie with Kak Ana. so funny lah the movie)
Ben Stiller is so funny. If i think back about some scenes, it can still make me laugh la. The movie was too short though, and the beginning isn't that funny... but the middle part onwards was.. starting from the scene at the pub when Ben Stiller introduced his players, "This is Blaze... This is Lazer.. This is Blazer." and the way he talks when it got confusing. kelakar la.
and according to Kak Ana, the guy who fell in love with the freaky woman is the guy in the Xelibri ads. funky eh.
so after the movie, went to KFC, had a fun time there :) then home at 4.30.
Lazed around, then watched Love,Actually for the millionth time with Aisyah. ended at 8 plus. Slept til 10. watched Coupling and The Office on StarTV or whatever - Channel 18. Coupling was quite good. The Office is quite funny. After that watched the Late Night Show with Jay Leno, where they interviewed the cute Matt LeBlanc, and then I slept.
Sunday - lazed around at home, played board games with my mom and sisters, went for jemputan, played more board games, read papers, watched Gilmore Girls, went to Habibie to buy food home, talked to M, had an argument with M. He sms apologies and asked out for dinner. Decided to ignore him. Played online Scrabble and then decided I hate arguing with M, so I called him at 10pm, talked til 12.35. Then slept.
He called this morning at 7.10 to wake me up.
He's so the best.
--
I had a fever on friday. I thought it was just plain flu, and my nose just wdn't stop running, so I went to Raffles Medical and the doctor took my temp and it was 38 degreeses (hehe) and she offered me MC but I thought since I was on leave on thursday, it wdn't be nice to take MC on friday pulak. Plus, I'll be on MC on the 7th of Oct and on leave on the 8th so mcm too often this whole MC / On Leave thing... so I declined the MC and the doctor said I might spread the germs to my colleagues and I said its ok. hahha. The thing was, I didn't feel sick.. so I didn't see a need for an MC.
I can't wait for saturday - payday. I'm so super broke.. $6 in my DBS and only $250 in my UOB (way below my self-promise that I should have at least enough for one month car payments + petrol = about $650 at least) and the waja has only 1/4 petrol on it. in fact, a bit lesser than that. And I dread going to top it up, coz mesti nanti cost a lot... $70 at least. sigh. My parents bought for me parking for oct til dec already, so I don't want to ask them to top up petrol and all lagi. So.... I shall go top up tonight.
Anyone who wants to offer to pay for my petrol, meet me at Shell near the old Changkat Changi Sec there tonight at about 7.30pm.
heh, a person can always live in hope.
--
Britney Spears married that Federline guy already on Sat!
9/20/2004 11:11:00 am | Permalink |
Friday, September 17, 2004
M is going to buy for me sportshoes from his camp, so we can go jogging together. hehehe. isn't that the cutest? i told him i want the army tshirt - since last time i thought their tshirts were cool, the dark brown / green one with ARMY written at the back.. but they dont have stock for the XS or S i think.. and now he wants to buy me the sportshoes coz I went jogging on Monday wearing Aisyah's shoes (i dun have my own sport shoes la, for what right have a pair, since I'm only jogging when i feel fat) And mind, its not Nike or Adidas, but instead New Balance like all those army people use. hehehe. i told him its for males (actually i would have used any argument I had just to stop him from buying me the shoes... coz once he gets it for me, then he'll be bugging me to jog regularly lah.) and he said no, its unisex. And he's not using money to buy it, he's using some army credit thing. Funky betul la. hehehe, he's so cute when he gets semangat like this.
u all will be seeing me jogging around simei once every 2 days soon, and then advancing to Tampines Stadium, and then to Bedok Reservoir and then I'll be joining the Tuas - 2nd link Marathon or something. TNP Big Walk also.
--
i was on leave yesterday - spent the whole day lazing around at home. Watched Oprah, which was really sad - about sexual abuse from teachers etc, and about this guy who crashed into another car not knowing it was his mom in that car. and he's only 21. so sad. kena jail 4 years.
then watched that rosyam nor story.. .at 3pm. i think today last episode, coz yesterday they got married and she got the cancer pains already. soon after she'll die. good show tau.
at 4.30, went to Nenek's house - Falee just got his eye operation, and he easily got one month MC for a day surgery. im jealous. note that before this he was on MC for dunnohowlong also for knee op, and then tonsils op, and now eye op. sat around at Nenek's house til 5.30, then brought Syaza to my house, then at night Pag came over and then Abg Aim fetched them and then I waited around for M's call and we talked til 1am.
Last night I asked him if we want to cook cup noodles, can we just use the hot water from the toilet water heater..
Not that I will use la, i just wondered if the hot water can be used. Coz its very hot kan, smokey and all that.
And he laughed and explained to me about water temperature and all. And germs and whatnots. Then of course had to add in sarcasm about how we shall do an experiment and all. His conclusion is that we can't do it. I'm still not sure, even after all his explaination. the hot water is very hot tau, got smoke all.
--
speaking of smoking. i think its ugly to see girls smoking - as in, it makes them look ugly. I remember talking to Kmal once and he said its ok for girls to smoke, he has many girl friends who smoke but I think smoking takes away the beauty (if any) that a girl has. some guys also dont look good smoking.. but i think M looks cute when he smokes, hehee.
weekend starts tonight! I so cant wait for this week to end, for some unknown reason I'm exhausted from working.
Tonight out for dinner with M, tomorrow morning breakfast with M and then catch an early movie, and then we shall lunch and then we shall go back and then Sunday I shall follow my mom to the 2 jemputans. so exciting, i love weddings.
u all will be seeing me jogging around simei once every 2 days soon, and then advancing to Tampines Stadium, and then to Bedok Reservoir and then I'll be joining the Tuas - 2nd link Marathon or something. TNP Big Walk also.
--
i was on leave yesterday - spent the whole day lazing around at home. Watched Oprah, which was really sad - about sexual abuse from teachers etc, and about this guy who crashed into another car not knowing it was his mom in that car. and he's only 21. so sad. kena jail 4 years.
then watched that rosyam nor story.. .at 3pm. i think today last episode, coz yesterday they got married and she got the cancer pains already. soon after she'll die. good show tau.
at 4.30, went to Nenek's house - Falee just got his eye operation, and he easily got one month MC for a day surgery. im jealous. note that before this he was on MC for dunnohowlong also for knee op, and then tonsils op, and now eye op. sat around at Nenek's house til 5.30, then brought Syaza to my house, then at night Pag came over and then Abg Aim fetched them and then I waited around for M's call and we talked til 1am.
Last night I asked him if we want to cook cup noodles, can we just use the hot water from the toilet water heater..
Not that I will use la, i just wondered if the hot water can be used. Coz its very hot kan, smokey and all that.
And he laughed and explained to me about water temperature and all. And germs and whatnots. Then of course had to add in sarcasm about how we shall do an experiment and all. His conclusion is that we can't do it. I'm still not sure, even after all his explaination. the hot water is very hot tau, got smoke all.
--
speaking of smoking. i think its ugly to see girls smoking - as in, it makes them look ugly. I remember talking to Kmal once and he said its ok for girls to smoke, he has many girl friends who smoke but I think smoking takes away the beauty (if any) that a girl has. some guys also dont look good smoking.. but i think M looks cute when he smokes, hehee.
weekend starts tonight! I so cant wait for this week to end, for some unknown reason I'm exhausted from working.
Tonight out for dinner with M, tomorrow morning breakfast with M and then catch an early movie, and then we shall lunch and then we shall go back and then Sunday I shall follow my mom to the 2 jemputans. so exciting, i love weddings.
9/17/2004 01:28:00 pm | Permalink |
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
another reason why I would love to go to Oprah's show
Seriously honestly, one of the things I want to do before I die is to go watch Oprah's show, be part of the audience, especially in one of those episodes where they do those sad topics, so I can cry along with them. Or the episode where they give away free stuff. I think Oprah Winfrey's cool. I hope she or one of her researchers google her name and find this site and realise I'm a big fan of hers and they will pay for me to go over and watch just one of her episodes tapings thing, and I promise I will go back on the same day so there's no need to pay for hotels whatsoever. Just my flight ticket (or maybe 2 tickets so I can have a friend on the long flight) I'm from Singapore, so just choose the cheapest flight that operates from Changi Airport. I really dont mind if I have to transit at 45 airports before I reach NY or wherever it is that you do the shows.
Oprah, I hope you (or your researchers) read this and make my dream come true (afterall, you did say no dream is too big or something) I can be reached at mazda113@gmail.com, anytime anyday.
..... hehehehe. that was funny.. to me, at least. What are the chances that they will read this blog.
ok, on a less hopeful note, or rather on a whole different note, I was in the train in the morning and I managed to get a seat at Bugis. The guy next to me was reading some self-help book or something, and since I had nothing to read, I just peered into his book and read along with him. So the page he was reading was talking about true love and romantic love. It said, everyone would like to think their relationship is true love, when it is actually just romantic love. Romantic love is when, you feel a 'high' when you are with that person, and when you aren't together, you miss him. so actually you aren't missing him, you are missing the 'high' feeling. (which was crap i thought, but more of my comments later)
True love, on the other hand, is wanting the best for your other half no matter what the circumstances are. Even if you aren't the one making him happy.... you got to be bigger (not physically lah ok) than that and let him be happy with other people. (there was more, but I forgot what)
then, the author proceeded on, saying that if you want to test if your love is true love or romantic love, you should do this mental test. Imagine you are very happy with your partner, but one day he comes home and says, I fell in love with your best friend and we have to be together, I hope you understand.
so the (stupid) author said, or rather, wrote, if you are really feeling true love, you would be happy for him. You would be ecstatic (yes he/she actually wrote ecstatic) that he found someone better than you, who can give him more happiness than you are able to. You would wish them the very best and even pray for their happiness together. That is true love, which is very rare.
What crap.
If you really feel ecstatic (not happy or anything tau, ecstatic is the word. which is like, madly happy kan) that your partner found someone else, there must really be something wrong with you. I accept if she said happy, (or better still she should have wrote grudgingly happy) but ecstatic would be wrong seh. Seriously, who CAN get ecstatic over that? Even after nursing the broken heart, even after all the stages to get to the acceptance stage, I dont think you can get to the ecstatic part ah.
... maybe the author dont understand the meaning of ecstatic eh.
and when I say I miss Mazreen, it's not because I miss the 'high' feeling. I miss Mazreen lor, not the 'high' feeling. I would sometimes hear a song on radio and remember Mazreen doing something funny about the song, and that makes me miss him coz I remember what happened then, seeing him doing whatever stupid irritating thing he's doing that makes me laugh. Does that mean I'm missing the 'high' feeling? I dont' think so. I just miss seeing him doing something stupid to make me laugh, hahaha.
it annoys me to read something like this, because, what if someone who reads something like that and thinks damns, I want to be a true lover sort of person, and somehow gets his partners to leave him for another person, and then gets ecstatic over that? That doesn't show that he's experiencing true love what, it just shows that he's deluded or something.
so yeah. reading amateur self-help books by people who claim to be experts in such things, really piss me off. I'm not saying I'm an expert, in fact I know I'm not but at least I don't write books on it kan. (but I do rant about it in this blog, so maybe im just as bad as those amateur wannabe-experts, haha)
but i still think that it's not normal to get ecstatic when your partner announces he wants to go be happy with someone else.
not normal at all.
that's what I think la. I might be wrong, but I dont need anyone to tell me. haha.
Seriously honestly, one of the things I want to do before I die is to go watch Oprah's show, be part of the audience, especially in one of those episodes where they do those sad topics, so I can cry along with them. Or the episode where they give away free stuff. I think Oprah Winfrey's cool. I hope she or one of her researchers google her name and find this site and realise I'm a big fan of hers and they will pay for me to go over and watch just one of her episodes tapings thing, and I promise I will go back on the same day so there's no need to pay for hotels whatsoever. Just my flight ticket (or maybe 2 tickets so I can have a friend on the long flight) I'm from Singapore, so just choose the cheapest flight that operates from Changi Airport. I really dont mind if I have to transit at 45 airports before I reach NY or wherever it is that you do the shows.
Oprah, I hope you (or your researchers) read this and make my dream come true (afterall, you did say no dream is too big or something) I can be reached at mazda113@gmail.com, anytime anyday.
..... hehehehe. that was funny.. to me, at least. What are the chances that they will read this blog.
ok, on a less hopeful note, or rather on a whole different note, I was in the train in the morning and I managed to get a seat at Bugis. The guy next to me was reading some self-help book or something, and since I had nothing to read, I just peered into his book and read along with him. So the page he was reading was talking about true love and romantic love. It said, everyone would like to think their relationship is true love, when it is actually just romantic love. Romantic love is when, you feel a 'high' when you are with that person, and when you aren't together, you miss him. so actually you aren't missing him, you are missing the 'high' feeling. (which was crap i thought, but more of my comments later)
True love, on the other hand, is wanting the best for your other half no matter what the circumstances are. Even if you aren't the one making him happy.... you got to be bigger (not physically lah ok) than that and let him be happy with other people. (there was more, but I forgot what)
then, the author proceeded on, saying that if you want to test if your love is true love or romantic love, you should do this mental test. Imagine you are very happy with your partner, but one day he comes home and says, I fell in love with your best friend and we have to be together, I hope you understand.
so the (stupid) author said, or rather, wrote, if you are really feeling true love, you would be happy for him. You would be ecstatic (yes he/she actually wrote ecstatic) that he found someone better than you, who can give him more happiness than you are able to. You would wish them the very best and even pray for their happiness together. That is true love, which is very rare.
What crap.
If you really feel ecstatic (not happy or anything tau, ecstatic is the word. which is like, madly happy kan) that your partner found someone else, there must really be something wrong with you. I accept if she said happy, (or better still she should have wrote grudgingly happy) but ecstatic would be wrong seh. Seriously, who CAN get ecstatic over that? Even after nursing the broken heart, even after all the stages to get to the acceptance stage, I dont think you can get to the ecstatic part ah.
... maybe the author dont understand the meaning of ecstatic eh.
and when I say I miss Mazreen, it's not because I miss the 'high' feeling. I miss Mazreen lor, not the 'high' feeling. I would sometimes hear a song on radio and remember Mazreen doing something funny about the song, and that makes me miss him coz I remember what happened then, seeing him doing whatever stupid irritating thing he's doing that makes me laugh. Does that mean I'm missing the 'high' feeling? I dont' think so. I just miss seeing him doing something stupid to make me laugh, hahaha.
it annoys me to read something like this, because, what if someone who reads something like that and thinks damns, I want to be a true lover sort of person, and somehow gets his partners to leave him for another person, and then gets ecstatic over that? That doesn't show that he's experiencing true love what, it just shows that he's deluded or something.
so yeah. reading amateur self-help books by people who claim to be experts in such things, really piss me off. I'm not saying I'm an expert, in fact I know I'm not but at least I don't write books on it kan. (but I do rant about it in this blog, so maybe im just as bad as those amateur wannabe-experts, haha)
but i still think that it's not normal to get ecstatic when your partner announces he wants to go be happy with someone else.
not normal at all.
that's what I think la. I might be wrong, but I dont need anyone to tell me. haha.
9/15/2004 10:08:00 am | Permalink |
Monday, September 13, 2004
Ross (from Friends): Unreasonable? How about we have this conversation when one of you guys gets married! You have no idea what it takes to make a marriage work! All right, it's about compromise! Do you always like it? No! Do you do it? Yes! Because it's not all laughing, happy, candy in the sky, drinking coffee at Central Perk all the time! It's real life, okay? It's what grown-ups do!
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Mazreen: "You go beat heart, ask appetite ok" (tepuk dada, tanya selera) Hehe, merepekly funny kan.
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Drove to Beach Road after work yesterday to buy food home, mee goreng & tulang. Had to go round about 2 times coz they had no large space for me to parallel park, hahah. I ended up in front of the madrasah and then running just incase the CISCO guy comes.
Then, because M was playing socer at that time (it was about 6pm) I thought I shall drop by his place to see him play soccer for awhile, konon mcm nak surprise-surprise him kan. sekali the soccer haven't started yet, and he was at the kedai kopi smoking away, with his friends. So i stopped in the car, at his side, but he didn't see me, and I didn't want to roll down the windows and shout his name or anything, malu kan... so i did a stupider (such a word?) thing, I horned the horn. (that sounds funny, haha) Terus macam the whole of Tampines turned to look like that, so malu. hahaha. he came over, talked for less than 2 minutes, and then I went home, just in time for Gilmore Girls. ate, sat around, etc, and then at 8 he called asked if Salleh and his cousin wants to come along to dinner, boleh tak.
after much hesitation and all, i figured what the heck kan, if it makes him happy i shall. plus i've met his cousin before, only Salleh ajer belum. Salleh's like his closest friend, something which me and farah would call his gay partner if we were in sec sch coz they are so close, heh. So i just sat with them at Al-Ameen with them, with nasi goreng and the typical mat2kedaikopi teh and all. And he's being so appreciative and glad, so all's good.
and then went over to the clinic at tampines mart area to buy aisyah's face cream, and he sent me home.
--
i just postponed the SGH appt again. this time its on 7th Oct. Everyone please remind me to start the medication starting...today. coz its supposed to be taken for a month to see if it makes a diff.
Friends last episode tonight, at 10pm. Heard its a tearjerker, so those watching should be armed with loads of tissues ok.
--
Farah dear, if u reading this - coz kita selalu on msn and email, i thought we shall communicate thru something new, we shall do thru journals pulak, hahah - sorry last night i didn't go to your house. thousand apologies, really. i wonder how to make it up to you.
let's continue planning our next date... preferably on msn? i lurps u beb.
... if u reading this lah. hahahah.
--
Mazreen: "You go beat heart, ask appetite ok" (tepuk dada, tanya selera) Hehe, merepekly funny kan.
--
Drove to Beach Road after work yesterday to buy food home, mee goreng & tulang. Had to go round about 2 times coz they had no large space for me to parallel park, hahah. I ended up in front of the madrasah and then running just incase the CISCO guy comes.
Then, because M was playing socer at that time (it was about 6pm) I thought I shall drop by his place to see him play soccer for awhile, konon mcm nak surprise-surprise him kan. sekali the soccer haven't started yet, and he was at the kedai kopi smoking away, with his friends. So i stopped in the car, at his side, but he didn't see me, and I didn't want to roll down the windows and shout his name or anything, malu kan... so i did a stupider (such a word?) thing, I horned the horn. (that sounds funny, haha) Terus macam the whole of Tampines turned to look like that, so malu. hahaha. he came over, talked for less than 2 minutes, and then I went home, just in time for Gilmore Girls. ate, sat around, etc, and then at 8 he called asked if Salleh and his cousin wants to come along to dinner, boleh tak.
after much hesitation and all, i figured what the heck kan, if it makes him happy i shall. plus i've met his cousin before, only Salleh ajer belum. Salleh's like his closest friend, something which me and farah would call his gay partner if we were in sec sch coz they are so close, heh. So i just sat with them at Al-Ameen with them, with nasi goreng and the typical mat2kedaikopi teh and all. And he's being so appreciative and glad, so all's good.
and then went over to the clinic at tampines mart area to buy aisyah's face cream, and he sent me home.
--
i just postponed the SGH appt again. this time its on 7th Oct. Everyone please remind me to start the medication starting...today. coz its supposed to be taken for a month to see if it makes a diff.
Friends last episode tonight, at 10pm. Heard its a tearjerker, so those watching should be armed with loads of tissues ok.
--
Farah dear, if u reading this - coz kita selalu on msn and email, i thought we shall communicate thru something new, we shall do thru journals pulak, hahah - sorry last night i didn't go to your house. thousand apologies, really. i wonder how to make it up to you.
let's continue planning our next date... preferably on msn? i lurps u beb.
... if u reading this lah. hahahah.
9/13/2004 01:34:00 pm | Permalink |
Sunday, September 12, 2004
i am at work. on a sunday. and its 1448hrs now, and im supposed to be able to go back already but i still have 2 more vsls to close and im pissed off la. ngantuk pulak tu. i want to rewind back to last week, exactly this time. please.
yesterday, watched Harold & Kumar go to White Castle which was really stupid, and not as funny as Something About Mary, not even near actually. And it was so cute after the movie, we looked at the time, oh its 6.55pm.
and then sudden realization from Mazreen "eh ada The Terminal at 7! Cepat cepat!" so we rushed out, and saw that The Terminal was at 6.45 actually, but we figured the adverts and whatever will take some time, so we bought those tickets pulak. after the 2 movies (The Terminal definitely better than Harold & Kumar) we went to Ah Beng to eat and then home.
Oh, before that we went to Jurong Point for lunch, and then to Teban to take the car, which was sent for servicing on Friday. My dad paid for the sevicing costs bcoz I was broke. $108.
Gen2 is quite pretty. And now I like Corea, by Audi or something. cute.
i want to go home lah. sgh needs to be postponed coz I dont have money. totally broke this month, hahaha. plus i dont really see the need to go now, since I haven't took the medication properly so i dunno if it would help or if it's something else. just for those interested, it isn't really bleeding anymore, but there's some still splashing about. sounds a bit gross actually eh, but can't be helped, hahaha.
Man On Fire needs to be watched. White Chicks. Raising Helen, but Mazreen doesn't want to. and that Hindustan cerita, the new one playing at bedok cinema. I haven't had a good hindustanmovie cry for a long time. Kuch Kuch is still the best.
what else needs to be blogged? I can't wait for my bonus - i hope they give 2 mths or more, Insya'Allah. so one month bonus for the car insurance, and another month bonus for other things. heh. I can't wait for my pay at the end of this month, taxi money last month was $200 so it shd be good.
about one month more to bulan puasa. got to pay back all those missed days ah... starting monday (that's tomorrow!) Insya'Allah. Kak Su is supposed to remind me tonight, heheh.
I changed the pic on my desk partition - from the bedroom one (of me farah and maria ok, haha) to the one at Genting coz this pic is so colourful and somehow makes me happy when I look at it.
Bangkok trip at the end of the year with maria most probably off - NO money at all. plus i dont think i want to spend a few days with her bf around.
i feel like i want to learn how to cook. hahahahahaha. at the moment, i can only fry an egg, and cook maggi. and nasi goreng the white kind, in my own style (with only that bawang or whatever, white colour kind of onion, egg, and fishballs. very simple, very easy - and that's the only kind) Mama dari dulu kata nak ajar buat Mee bandung, sampai sekarang tak ajar2...
i shd probably learn how to cook rice first. hahahahahahaha.
im a failure in the kitchen. sigh. give me time, i'll be the next Yan (Yan can cook) (i dunno why him of all people. maybe bcoz he's the only chef i can remember at the moment, haha)
im bored.
i had BK for lunch. Big Fish and fries, and coke from Shell tadi. Anson Road Shell SEVEN percent off + Escape Points so go spread the news around. But i was doing mental calculation the other day, and I think if u go top up at JB, it's about at least 40% off, so honestly I would rather brave the traffic jams and all just to top up there.
I need to get CLEO M'sia.
Yesterday me and Mazreen had a conversation about who loves who more. hahah. he's so cute.
(thank you for yesterday)
I want to go American Idol concert!!! Someone gimme money please!! Mazreen say go and buy the cheapest - thinking of doing that, but macam boring kan duduk at dunnowheresofarback.
sigh. i think i shall use the money to buy a new rearview mirror for the waja. hahaha.
nothing interesting happened lately lah. which is why my blog so boring.
yesterday, watched Harold & Kumar go to White Castle which was really stupid, and not as funny as Something About Mary, not even near actually. And it was so cute after the movie, we looked at the time, oh its 6.55pm.
and then sudden realization from Mazreen "eh ada The Terminal at 7! Cepat cepat!" so we rushed out, and saw that The Terminal was at 6.45 actually, but we figured the adverts and whatever will take some time, so we bought those tickets pulak. after the 2 movies (The Terminal definitely better than Harold & Kumar) we went to Ah Beng to eat and then home.
Oh, before that we went to Jurong Point for lunch, and then to Teban to take the car, which was sent for servicing on Friday. My dad paid for the sevicing costs bcoz I was broke. $108.
Gen2 is quite pretty. And now I like Corea, by Audi or something. cute.
i want to go home lah. sgh needs to be postponed coz I dont have money. totally broke this month, hahaha. plus i dont really see the need to go now, since I haven't took the medication properly so i dunno if it would help or if it's something else. just for those interested, it isn't really bleeding anymore, but there's some still splashing about. sounds a bit gross actually eh, but can't be helped, hahaha.
Man On Fire needs to be watched. White Chicks. Raising Helen, but Mazreen doesn't want to. and that Hindustan cerita, the new one playing at bedok cinema. I haven't had a good hindustanmovie cry for a long time. Kuch Kuch is still the best.
what else needs to be blogged? I can't wait for my bonus - i hope they give 2 mths or more, Insya'Allah. so one month bonus for the car insurance, and another month bonus for other things. heh. I can't wait for my pay at the end of this month, taxi money last month was $200 so it shd be good.
about one month more to bulan puasa. got to pay back all those missed days ah... starting monday (that's tomorrow!) Insya'Allah. Kak Su is supposed to remind me tonight, heheh.
I changed the pic on my desk partition - from the bedroom one (of me farah and maria ok, haha) to the one at Genting coz this pic is so colourful and somehow makes me happy when I look at it.
Bangkok trip at the end of the year with maria most probably off - NO money at all. plus i dont think i want to spend a few days with her bf around.
i feel like i want to learn how to cook. hahahahahaha. at the moment, i can only fry an egg, and cook maggi. and nasi goreng the white kind, in my own style (with only that bawang or whatever, white colour kind of onion, egg, and fishballs. very simple, very easy - and that's the only kind) Mama dari dulu kata nak ajar buat Mee bandung, sampai sekarang tak ajar2...
i shd probably learn how to cook rice first. hahahahahahaha.
im a failure in the kitchen. sigh. give me time, i'll be the next Yan (Yan can cook) (i dunno why him of all people. maybe bcoz he's the only chef i can remember at the moment, haha)
im bored.
i had BK for lunch. Big Fish and fries, and coke from Shell tadi. Anson Road Shell SEVEN percent off + Escape Points so go spread the news around. But i was doing mental calculation the other day, and I think if u go top up at JB, it's about at least 40% off, so honestly I would rather brave the traffic jams and all just to top up there.
I need to get CLEO M'sia.
Yesterday me and Mazreen had a conversation about who loves who more. hahah. he's so cute.
(thank you for yesterday)
I want to go American Idol concert!!! Someone gimme money please!! Mazreen say go and buy the cheapest - thinking of doing that, but macam boring kan duduk at dunnowheresofarback.
sigh. i think i shall use the money to buy a new rearview mirror for the waja. hahaha.
nothing interesting happened lately lah. which is why my blog so boring.
9/12/2004 02:47:00 pm | Permalink |
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
for some reason - perhaps stupidity - i asked M a very stupid question.
background info - fiq said that there were times when he felt that a break up wd be good for him and his gf, which led me to wonder if M ever thought the same way
so i asked him, when we were about to hang up the phone last night. he said, can we talk about this some other time? i said no, just answer me first.. im just curious.
and he said yes, pernah.
oh. shocked me. ter-silent for a while. asked him when. he hesitated.. erm.. urm.. then he said when he doesn't have time to do other things, coz he's always out with me, and therefore he thought it wd be easier if he was single, more time and all that.
sedih kan. i knew this time thing bugs him, but i never knew that it was to the extent that he might consider a breakup. honestly it wasn't that he thought of a breakup that saddens me.. it was the reason why he might have wanted it.
we hung up after that. this morning i woke up, there was an sms from him, saying sorry, he shdn't have told me, he should have just kept it to himself.
that's what he does when he's unhappy, he doesn't tell me so i wouldn't know. if i don't know, how to correct it kan?
then he asked me what abt me, have i ever wanted a breakup? i said yups - there was one time we argued so often that i wondered if i should still be doing this. and then he said, how come i didnt ask then? he said he's glad i didn't ask, but he's curious. so i said at that time killing him would be a good idea also but that doesn't mean im going to do it. plus i want to make this work, i know it can. (insya'allah)
i like what Monica once said to Chandler on Friends. She said that she doesn't believe in soulmates.. and that she thinks she and Chandler are not soulmates. Instead, they fell in love and decided to make things work, even thought it gets so hard at times.
i found that very sweet. of course in my own thinkingromanticthoughts mind, i think me and M are soulmates. how else to explain that we met again after so many years? but honestly speaking its also hard having to take care of another person's feelings, thoughts at the same time as yours. yeah he had to endure my nonsense and the perangai a lot of times, but sometimes he also forgets that i have to endure some other stuff of his. and i think he also forgets that I can't read his mind, so if he were to keep quiet, i wouldn't know whats troubling him. maybe he's just that kind of person, keepnegativitytohimself sort of person, and i got to work around that?
honestly. times like this, when i reflect, yeah i realise he's been doing more than his fair share of compromising. he does do a lot of stuff just to make me happy, and he makes the effort to meet me even he's tired, and who can forget that time when he came all the way to tg pagar to this building just to fetch me altho he baru balik from camp.
BUT. i also in my penat2 mode, drove all the way to dunnowhereinsembawang when he said he got time off and i tak nak datang there ke to meet him?
i like to read quotes and books on little things to make life better. a bit kental i know, but i like. so anyway, i read once that communication and compromise is the most important thing. another one i read on the net goes like this - these 4 'A's are important in a relationship:
- attention
- appreciation
- affection
- attraction
so yeah. M just called. i think both of us need to hire a time-planner for us la. he wants to meet tonight but im thinking that i should let him spend time with his family, since he said he doesn't spend enough time with his family.. but he said he wants to. then tmrw we don't need to.
im confused lah. big time. nanti kalau jumpa, wait he say he got no time with his parents. aper nie, diriku confused.
--
but i have to say, and Im glad M sms me this also just now, i know this can work out if we put in effort. and i want this to work out, and M believes it can.
:)
reassurance is good.
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of all the things in the whole wide world to dream of, i dreamt that i change my blogskin and it came out really ugly and messed up and i had to rectify it.
weirdness.
background info - fiq said that there were times when he felt that a break up wd be good for him and his gf, which led me to wonder if M ever thought the same way
so i asked him, when we were about to hang up the phone last night. he said, can we talk about this some other time? i said no, just answer me first.. im just curious.
and he said yes, pernah.
oh. shocked me. ter-silent for a while. asked him when. he hesitated.. erm.. urm.. then he said when he doesn't have time to do other things, coz he's always out with me, and therefore he thought it wd be easier if he was single, more time and all that.
sedih kan. i knew this time thing bugs him, but i never knew that it was to the extent that he might consider a breakup. honestly it wasn't that he thought of a breakup that saddens me.. it was the reason why he might have wanted it.
we hung up after that. this morning i woke up, there was an sms from him, saying sorry, he shdn't have told me, he should have just kept it to himself.
that's what he does when he's unhappy, he doesn't tell me so i wouldn't know. if i don't know, how to correct it kan?
then he asked me what abt me, have i ever wanted a breakup? i said yups - there was one time we argued so often that i wondered if i should still be doing this. and then he said, how come i didnt ask then? he said he's glad i didn't ask, but he's curious. so i said at that time killing him would be a good idea also but that doesn't mean im going to do it. plus i want to make this work, i know it can. (insya'allah)
i like what Monica once said to Chandler on Friends. She said that she doesn't believe in soulmates.. and that she thinks she and Chandler are not soulmates. Instead, they fell in love and decided to make things work, even thought it gets so hard at times.
i found that very sweet. of course in my own thinkingromanticthoughts mind, i think me and M are soulmates. how else to explain that we met again after so many years? but honestly speaking its also hard having to take care of another person's feelings, thoughts at the same time as yours. yeah he had to endure my nonsense and the perangai a lot of times, but sometimes he also forgets that i have to endure some other stuff of his. and i think he also forgets that I can't read his mind, so if he were to keep quiet, i wouldn't know whats troubling him. maybe he's just that kind of person, keepnegativitytohimself sort of person, and i got to work around that?
honestly. times like this, when i reflect, yeah i realise he's been doing more than his fair share of compromising. he does do a lot of stuff just to make me happy, and he makes the effort to meet me even he's tired, and who can forget that time when he came all the way to tg pagar to this building just to fetch me altho he baru balik from camp.
BUT. i also in my penat2 mode, drove all the way to dunnowhereinsembawang when he said he got time off and i tak nak datang there ke to meet him?
i like to read quotes and books on little things to make life better. a bit kental i know, but i like. so anyway, i read once that communication and compromise is the most important thing. another one i read on the net goes like this - these 4 'A's are important in a relationship:
- attention
- appreciation
- affection
- attraction
so yeah. M just called. i think both of us need to hire a time-planner for us la. he wants to meet tonight but im thinking that i should let him spend time with his family, since he said he doesn't spend enough time with his family.. but he said he wants to. then tmrw we don't need to.
im confused lah. big time. nanti kalau jumpa, wait he say he got no time with his parents. aper nie, diriku confused.
--
but i have to say, and Im glad M sms me this also just now, i know this can work out if we put in effort. and i want this to work out, and M believes it can.
:)
reassurance is good.
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of all the things in the whole wide world to dream of, i dreamt that i change my blogskin and it came out really ugly and messed up and i had to rectify it.
weirdness.
9/08/2004 10:57:00 am | Permalink |
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
ok i just read the transcript for the last episode of Friends which will be on tv next week actually, and i teared... so sedih lah.
that's all. hehe.
(im bored la)
that's all. hehe.
(im bored la)
9/07/2004 11:13:00 am | Permalink |
(my colleague is shrieking away behind me to dunnowho on the phone, and its annoying me.)
just got back from the bank - i have $321 in my UOB and $6 in my DBS. pathetic eh. and i went to buy ambi pur air freshener (coz one of my colleagues stinks - i should make everyone use Mazreen's deoderant eh, hahaa) and i bought hazeline snow (of all brands eh. im tired of using those brands that promise better smoother skin but it doesnt work so im back to oldskoolbrand Hazeline Snow. hehe. so murah pulak tu, $2.35 only. i hope it works.
i should also try to diet or at least do 93775 situps each night.
i feel for kway teow goreng sakura, or the nasi goreng sambal la.
anyway, update for the weekend - other than the cryptic-ish entry yesterday (hehe) -
friday - went JB, with parents and Mazreen. went to singgah slalu, had crab and all. top up petrol. reached home at about 1 am.
saturday - went out with farah and then with Mazreen.
:)
sunday - went out with Mazreen. :)
to his cousin's wedding, at tampines.
effects of the weekend still around. feeling happy and allpositivity. hip hip hooray sort of feeling. haha.
i hope its the same way for you.
--
last night went to KFC with him and Aisyah - coz parents went to dunnowhatkampung in JB with my mother's friends.
--
saw Islin's pic on friendster. girl, why u look so slutty? (yes i hope u google ur name and find this here and know that u look slutty, not minahish like u wanted. tsk)
Abu bakar, a primary sch friend who Lydia said had the hugest crush on me *ahem* (hehe, aksyen eh) and Nasri, also added me to their list. its so best finding all these longlost people.
--
tonight bringing M to the polyclinic or hospital. he's been having back pain since sunday when he played soccer. poor boy. will this be the end of the soccer-on-sunday for him??
i hope not, i like that he's very sporty and spends time with his frens. hehe.
--
1/2 hour to lunch time. i cant wait la. lapar.
just got back from the bank - i have $321 in my UOB and $6 in my DBS. pathetic eh. and i went to buy ambi pur air freshener (coz one of my colleagues stinks - i should make everyone use Mazreen's deoderant eh, hahaa) and i bought hazeline snow (of all brands eh. im tired of using those brands that promise better smoother skin but it doesnt work so im back to oldskoolbrand Hazeline Snow. hehe. so murah pulak tu, $2.35 only. i hope it works.
i should also try to diet or at least do 93775 situps each night.
i feel for kway teow goreng sakura, or the nasi goreng sambal la.
anyway, update for the weekend - other than the cryptic-ish entry yesterday (hehe) -
friday - went JB, with parents and Mazreen. went to singgah slalu, had crab and all. top up petrol. reached home at about 1 am.
saturday - went out with farah and then with Mazreen.
:)
sunday - went out with Mazreen. :)
to his cousin's wedding, at tampines.
effects of the weekend still around. feeling happy and allpositivity. hip hip hooray sort of feeling. haha.
i hope its the same way for you.
--
last night went to KFC with him and Aisyah - coz parents went to dunnowhatkampung in JB with my mother's friends.
--
saw Islin's pic on friendster. girl, why u look so slutty? (yes i hope u google ur name and find this here and know that u look slutty, not minahish like u wanted. tsk)
Abu bakar, a primary sch friend who Lydia said had the hugest crush on me *ahem* (hehe, aksyen eh) and Nasri, also added me to their list. its so best finding all these longlost people.
--
tonight bringing M to the polyclinic or hospital. he's been having back pain since sunday when he played soccer. poor boy. will this be the end of the soccer-on-sunday for him??
i hope not, i like that he's very sporty and spends time with his frens. hehe.
--
1/2 hour to lunch time. i cant wait la. lapar.
9/07/2004 11:13:00 am | Permalink |
Monday, September 06, 2004
this time yesterday...
this time 2 days ago...
pls rewind back time.
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im happy. make that happys. happies. happy plural.
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magical.
--
round 3?
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you.
are.
the.
best.
in.
everything.
--
heh.
this time 2 days ago...
pls rewind back time.
--
im happy. make that happys. happies. happy plural.
--
magical.
--
round 3?
--
you.
are.
the.
best.
in.
everything.
--
heh.
9/06/2004 02:32:00 pm | Permalink |
Friday, September 03, 2004
DarLoong.
compare the 2 pictures below.
which one cuter? hehe.
my aunt Tinda commented the other day that Mazreen looks like PM Lee. and she thinks its a compliment coz to her, PM Lee is cute and looks very intellectual. Another aunt, Didi, thinks Mazreen looks very learned and intellectual and pendiam. Bak thinks he looks like a budak baik.
"tipah tertipu..." heh
personally to me Mazreen doesn't look like PM Lee. (eh thank God they all say PM Lee Hsien Loong ah. not Lee Kuan Yew. hahahahah. LKY looks like an orangutan to me.) actually PM Lee quite cute also, i like the way he gushes when he talks and the way his eyes crinkle up when he smiles or laughs.
eh actually Mazreen pon crinkle2 eyes semua when he smiles. even cuter when he laughs, coz its like the crinkled eyes make a sound like that. (does that make sense to you? coz it does to me. haha) but he doesn't gush la, so the similarities end at the crinkled eyes ajer.
oh. and Tinda said, "ida, from now on, you dont call him Darling ok. you call him Dar-loong. as in PM Lee's manja name.. " hahaha.
---
have finally paid off my hp bills. memang betul my DBS card tak cukup duit, so i had to use my UOB instead. Paid at Simei MRT. After that, went to NTUC. M called when i was there, and I suggested he comes meet me at Eastpt so we can eat at KFC, but no... he wnts to go home first. he suggested coming over to my house with kfc food and all, but somehow the idea was mooted. So somehow we ended up not meeting. I went home, ate rice with rendang, then watched TV (I thought yesterday's contestants weren't that good. and I think next week's contestant Taufiq looks like Kamal. In fact when i first saw his face, I thought Kamal joined SG Idol.. tapi nama lain, so i guess its not him.)
(speaking of Kamal. Shakirah knows Kamal! SMALL world eh.)
.. so anyways. I was watching TV, got bored, so called Mazreen. Talked to him for a while, til 9 plus. Then he wanted to top up petrol etc, so I went to bathe. At 10, watched TV some more (boring existence eh. endless TV like that) and then at 10 plus, talked to Mazreen again. We were listening to some of our recorded conversations on his hp... so cute la both of us. hahahahaha. *feeling prasan*
my mom showed me Sunday's Berita Harian (are they still called Berita Minggu?) - the article abt some mini-pocongs. Freaky makcik kan. At night I cdn't sleep at first. Each time I close my eyes, I saw the images of those mini-pocongs, but this time round, they were jumping around! Seram sungguh.
---
tonight going to JB for dinner with my family and Mazreen coming along and to top up petrol also. (need to get CLEO Msia also) Finally the petrol has dipped below the 1/2 mark. Usually 3/4 mark, kita dah top up again -
which made my mom say that the petrol at the bottom must be basi already. hehe.
---
I can't wait for tmrw dar-loong. ;)
which one cuter? hehe.
my aunt Tinda commented the other day that Mazreen looks like PM Lee. and she thinks its a compliment coz to her, PM Lee is cute and looks very intellectual. Another aunt, Didi, thinks Mazreen looks very learned and intellectual and pendiam. Bak thinks he looks like a budak baik.
"tipah tertipu..." heh
personally to me Mazreen doesn't look like PM Lee. (eh thank God they all say PM Lee Hsien Loong ah. not Lee Kuan Yew. hahahahah. LKY looks like an orangutan to me.) actually PM Lee quite cute also, i like the way he gushes when he talks and the way his eyes crinkle up when he smiles or laughs.
eh actually Mazreen pon crinkle2 eyes semua when he smiles. even cuter when he laughs, coz its like the crinkled eyes make a sound like that. (does that make sense to you? coz it does to me. haha) but he doesn't gush la, so the similarities end at the crinkled eyes ajer.
oh. and Tinda said, "ida, from now on, you dont call him Darling ok. you call him Dar-loong. as in PM Lee's manja name.. " hahaha.
---
have finally paid off my hp bills. memang betul my DBS card tak cukup duit, so i had to use my UOB instead. Paid at Simei MRT. After that, went to NTUC. M called when i was there, and I suggested he comes meet me at Eastpt so we can eat at KFC, but no... he wnts to go home first. he suggested coming over to my house with kfc food and all, but somehow the idea was mooted. So somehow we ended up not meeting. I went home, ate rice with rendang, then watched TV (I thought yesterday's contestants weren't that good. and I think next week's contestant Taufiq looks like Kamal. In fact when i first saw his face, I thought Kamal joined SG Idol.. tapi nama lain, so i guess its not him.)
(speaking of Kamal. Shakirah knows Kamal! SMALL world eh.)
.. so anyways. I was watching TV, got bored, so called Mazreen. Talked to him for a while, til 9 plus. Then he wanted to top up petrol etc, so I went to bathe. At 10, watched TV some more (boring existence eh. endless TV like that) and then at 10 plus, talked to Mazreen again. We were listening to some of our recorded conversations on his hp... so cute la both of us. hahahahaha. *feeling prasan*
my mom showed me Sunday's Berita Harian (are they still called Berita Minggu?) - the article abt some mini-pocongs. Freaky makcik kan. At night I cdn't sleep at first. Each time I close my eyes, I saw the images of those mini-pocongs, but this time round, they were jumping around! Seram sungguh.
---
tonight going to JB for dinner with my family and Mazreen coming along and to top up petrol also. (need to get CLEO Msia also) Finally the petrol has dipped below the 1/2 mark. Usually 3/4 mark, kita dah top up again -
which made my mom say that the petrol at the bottom must be basi already. hehe.
---
I can't wait for tmrw dar-loong. ;)
9/03/2004 02:26:00 pm | Permalink |
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
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personality tests by similarminds.com
so im.. (ones in bold i think is correct.)
supportive, comforting, instinctive, non-analytical, emotional, depressed, modest, docile, sombre, restrained, conforming, traditional, shy, withdrawn, touchy, soft, wary, suspicious, practical, regular, private, quiet, anxious, self-doubting, curious, exploratory, loner, craves solitude, orderly, thorough..
.. and since the tension part is 50/50, i could either relaxed, cool or stressed, unsatisfied. i choose the former. relaxed and cool shall be me :) haha.
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feeling pathetic financially. I have abt $530 in my UOB, and $260 in my DBS. so i went to pay my hp bills just now (Singtel's new billing system is giving me headaches. They billing me for 2 months usage, from 1st July to 25th Aug - so total is $156. My SMS ajer for the 2 months is $99. *in shock*) so to continue the story, i went to pay my hp bill and M's one also. Coz usually i would pay for him first and then he would pay me back on the 12th when he gets his pay. so total for our bills combined is abt $258. I try to pay using my DBS card.
transaction not approved! i tried a few times, coz that time i forgot that I had withdrawn money from DBS therefore there's btwn $250 - $260. Try 3 times, then still cannot, and by then dah ada queue forming behind me and kaypoh woman behind me kept peering at the AXS screen. so I malu already, so exit, tak jadi bayar. Shall try at Simei later where the people aren't so kaypoh nak tengok2 screen orang semua.
then went over to Amara bldg, and BK auntie gave me 2 of those coupons. Have to admit I actually tried to manuveur (sp?) my way specially to where she was standing, and time my footsteps correctly so I would be the only one passing by her, so mcm konon terpaksa take the coupons u know? hahaha. so she passed 2 to me, and i didn't want to look like i memang so cheapskate dapat coupon baru gi BK. So i went to watsons, jalan2, then baru went to BK. heheh. bought the $3.50 Big Fish and Fries, without drinks.
waiterguy asked me if i wanted to add drinks. i said no. then i walked on to the coffeeshop downstairs to buy coke. one can $1.00. hehee.
so yeah i feel pathetic financially. tapi at least UOB still got $500++ after car payments, so Insya'Allah can survive til the end of the month. (its only the 2nd of sept today!)
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all these deaths occuring at MRT stations.... i hope it doesn't happen at Simei or Tampines MRT.
but train deaths are better than people jumping to their deaths from HDB blocks actually.
i've always had a fear of walking out from the void deck and seeing some dead body splattered on the floor. or even worse.......... falling right in front of my eyes. or if the paranoid me is thinking, falling right smack on top of me and bringing me to the other side with him/her sekali.
choy ah. (*feeling nyonya* hhehe)
9/02/2004 01:41:00 pm | Permalink |
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
the chalet, on the 2nd floor, overlooked wild wild wet (or wet wet wild) la. so sitting on the balcony was great fun, esp with the radio-friendly music that they played. and it was super tempting to pay $12 just to sit around in the pools. (since kalau pakai tshirt and all, u cant play the rides. which will then be quite wasted ah to pay $12)
the chalet was fun, the birthday thing was on sunday night.. sungguh ramai orang. M came.
slept over on sunday. at the living room with the cousins and aunts. mini-drama while opening presents, but easily resolved. the next morning, woke up at about 9, moved into the room coz everyone was awake, so mcm malu nak baring tido kat luar. at 11, Rizal, urged by Kak Ayu, took his supersoaker thing and sprayed water at me. terkejut, terus terbangun. bathed, ate kfc, took 3 hours to finish reading Sunday Times and Sunday New Paper at the balcony facing the waterthemepark. at 4, slept again, woke up at 7. sat around, at 8 went to dinner with everyone at the openairtempatmakan at downtown east, then went back home.
tuesday - lazed around some more at home. woke up at 11 i think, helped mama with some stuff, then slept again, woke up at 1. watched Oprah, fave show ever, and then played computer. slept at 4, woke up at 7. was supposed to meet Mazreen but long story, so tak jadi. watched tv, makan durians, and slept again at 11. woke up this morning and went to work.
so here i am now.
--
Wat do you guyz think about dis?
Personally, at times, i think love is enough to make miracles(fr 'the notebook') but often than not, it may not be so. else, how come we can see so many break-ups rite?
I think its how much we believe in love that matters and how far we are willing to go for de sake of love. If u love each other enuff, u'll take de effort to overcome your differences and problems. When two people are together, tensions are bound to arise right..
But then, wat about those r'ships where there's a gap in status? or race? then, is love enough?
i realli like dis phrase.. "selagi ada cinta.."
so if there's no more love, wat happens?
one more qns, does love die? or does it just transform into somethin else?
got above from Hawa's blog.
here's my thoughts on above ok. (but before that, note that she mentioned The Notebook. Must be a good movie tau. wasted tak tengok)
in my more-depressed moments, i think there's no such thing as love, that love only serves to hurt, and its just some overromantic person making stuff up. in my more happier moments, i htink that love is everything, it's all you need to live.
but my heart and mind tells me that love can come in many forms... and what is more impt than love is faith.
repeat that. faith.
:)
not faith as in religionwise, but faith in yr relationship, in yourself. similar to what hawa said above, that if u love each other enough, you'll take the effort. coz u have faith that things will work out somehow, if u try hard enough.
my mom always say relationships are never easy.
... but of course that effort thing must be mutual. i remember Rin saying last time that in a relationship, the two people must meet in the middle. That's the ideal kind of relationship. but when one person is only at the 1/4 mark, the other person should go more than required, and go to the 3/4 mark. just because of love. but it should never be going over to full mark, to the 4/4 mark, coz then the other person is not making any effort already and whats the point then kan.
last point. love doesn't die. it just transforms into something else. like i said, love comes in many forms. either that, or it wasn't even love in the first place.
the chalet was fun, the birthday thing was on sunday night.. sungguh ramai orang. M came.
slept over on sunday. at the living room with the cousins and aunts. mini-drama while opening presents, but easily resolved. the next morning, woke up at about 9, moved into the room coz everyone was awake, so mcm malu nak baring tido kat luar. at 11, Rizal, urged by Kak Ayu, took his supersoaker thing and sprayed water at me. terkejut, terus terbangun. bathed, ate kfc, took 3 hours to finish reading Sunday Times and Sunday New Paper at the balcony facing the waterthemepark. at 4, slept again, woke up at 7. sat around, at 8 went to dinner with everyone at the openairtempatmakan at downtown east, then went back home.
tuesday - lazed around some more at home. woke up at 11 i think, helped mama with some stuff, then slept again, woke up at 1. watched Oprah, fave show ever, and then played computer. slept at 4, woke up at 7. was supposed to meet Mazreen but long story, so tak jadi. watched tv, makan durians, and slept again at 11. woke up this morning and went to work.
so here i am now.
--
Wat do you guyz think about dis?
Personally, at times, i think love is enough to make miracles(fr 'the notebook') but often than not, it may not be so. else, how come we can see so many break-ups rite?
I think its how much we believe in love that matters and how far we are willing to go for de sake of love. If u love each other enuff, u'll take de effort to overcome your differences and problems. When two people are together, tensions are bound to arise right..
But then, wat about those r'ships where there's a gap in status? or race? then, is love enough?
i realli like dis phrase.. "selagi ada cinta.."
so if there's no more love, wat happens?
one more qns, does love die? or does it just transform into somethin else?
got above from Hawa's blog.
here's my thoughts on above ok. (but before that, note that she mentioned The Notebook. Must be a good movie tau. wasted tak tengok)
in my more-depressed moments, i think there's no such thing as love, that love only serves to hurt, and its just some overromantic person making stuff up. in my more happier moments, i htink that love is everything, it's all you need to live.
but my heart and mind tells me that love can come in many forms... and what is more impt than love is faith.
repeat that. faith.
:)
not faith as in religionwise, but faith in yr relationship, in yourself. similar to what hawa said above, that if u love each other enough, you'll take the effort. coz u have faith that things will work out somehow, if u try hard enough.
my mom always say relationships are never easy.
... but of course that effort thing must be mutual. i remember Rin saying last time that in a relationship, the two people must meet in the middle. That's the ideal kind of relationship. but when one person is only at the 1/4 mark, the other person should go more than required, and go to the 3/4 mark. just because of love. but it should never be going over to full mark, to the 4/4 mark, coz then the other person is not making any effort already and whats the point then kan.
last point. love doesn't die. it just transforms into something else. like i said, love comes in many forms. either that, or it wasn't even love in the first place.
9/01/2004 02:34:00 pm | Permalink |