i met Lydia yesterday, sat at bk-cs and had a grand time reminiscing about primary school days.  she even brought her pri 6 autograph book, which i apparently wrote in.. and i just have to share this here - in my biodata part, i wrote the usuals - d.o.b., best friends, fave things - and then i wrote...

Person I Hate Most: My ex-bf in your class

(Mazreen & Lydia were in the same class)  

Here's the love story.. me and Mazreen were actually a 'couple' in Pri 6 (we start young eh, hehee) and according to him, he always call my house, but due to my strict parents, i can't talk to him kan.  so he thought i dont want to talk to him, so he started ignoring me.  but i didn't know that, so i assumed he was purposely ignoring me pasal tak suka lagi or something.  so from then on, terus mcm konon 'hate' him la. 

little did we know that about 9 years later, we would meet again and fall in love... hehehehe. 

shared a few other stories, abt her friend who met a guy she talked to thru a chat line, and got her things stolen from her instead. happen 2 times with 2 different guys tau.  imagine. 

a few of our pri sch friends are also married, some with kids already.  i was in shock ok.  seriously.  coz the girls who are married, u wdn't expect them to be married so fast kind. 
(told M abt this - his reaction? "eh, kenapa diaorang tak jemput kita??")

so anyways, after exchanging all the stories, kita pon balik at 9pm.  took bus home, talked to my parents, talked to M for a while on the phone.  then slept.  dreamt of lydia.  hehehe.

tmrw's saturday.  i can't wait.  fireworks at tg rhu anyone?  

u know how some people have weaknesses for shoes, bags etc?  i just discovered that mine is cheap books.  when i see bookstores / temporary make-stand ones (sometimes there are a few at tg pagar area)  I usually approach them thinking im just going to browse through.. if i see any good books, i'll go to the library and borrow.  tapi kan, i'll end up buying at least one.  that is at the tg pagar ones.. belum kata the ones at expo.  penguin book sales and all.   $3-$5 each book... can go crazy.  that time went with farah... we were supposed to go to the metro sale next door, tapi end up at the book sale, i spent abt $40 i think.  

so anyways.  what im trying to say here is, i went to the bank to transfer my money from dbs to the uob car one, and then there was a book sale (a makeshift one) at amara.  didn't want to buy anything (at that time i just sms M, telling him we got to budget a lot this month) 

... then i saw the book by Danielle Steel, "His Bright Light" (abt her son, Nick Traina - true story)  I been looking for that book since that time i went borders with shaz and farah a few years back and the 3 of us had tears running down our cheeks while reading the story (that was when i was 17 i think - at that time, senang emo agak, haha)  Its very hard to find a paperback version - and i found one just now at only $5... so beli lah.  baru last week i bought a book, also $5.  and one more before that also.  true that so far only a few dollars spent.. tapi in the grand scheme of things, its a bit the a lot ah. 

and.. i dont like people reading the book before me tau.  unless i let u lah.  i dont like people even leafing through the pages, etc without my permission.  same goes for food.  if i ordered / bought something, i like to eat a small piece first before offering it to people.  it might be weird ah, tapi i dont like la people potong jalan mcm tu. 

cute moment for today.  I was in the toilet, and sekali M sms me, "Hey babe.. what u doing? I'm having a teabreak and i'm in the toilet now."  mcm coincidental that both of us were in the same toilet at the same time, hehe.  a bit the gay, my thoughts, i know.. but to me it was cute la.. hehehe..  

going back in 5 minutes.  its raining here and im a bit the malas to go out tapi Lydia dah ajak jumpa so meeting her at tampines at 645. 

ngantuk sungguh.  tak boleh tahan. 

saturday saturday.  akan datang. 

yesterday was one super tired day.  i got a seat in the train (highlight of the day, hehe).. sekali the guy sitting beside me was someone who probably didn't give a damn abt hygiene or something.  smelly like hell i tell u.  so much for wanting to sleep and all.  the kepala so mabuk by then.  not that he was the poor kind of person, u know, mcm wearing dirty clothes or anything - coz that kind of people, i dont comment on, they dont have much choice kan so i feel bad if i were to say bad things.  but this guy was the educated kind of guy (he was reading some computer notes) and wearing normal shirt and pants and all.. i went home and washed the toilet. 

had kfc zinger for dinner, with fries and popcorn chicken.  saw shaz at starbucks, went over said hi.  she asked how many kids i have at home, coz i look so tired, like i was taking care of them like that.  hah. 

talked to Mazreen at night for abt half an hr.  kerinduan yg melampau.  hehee.  tried to drag the convo tapi he declared that he wasn't listening to what i was saying even if he tried, coz he's dozing off already.  i felt bad then, so we hung up. 

feeling so tired today again.  had a bad dream.  not a good sleep last night.  woke up restless so many times at night.  Mazreen's wake up call this morning was so shocking like that, he sounded so fierce.  i was wondering why he sounded like that... then i remembered i told him last night that his nice voice always makes me want to sleep more.  so he tried sounding fierce, tapi it still didn't work.  woke up at 8.20 today when my mom pulled the blanket off me to the floor. 

now abt to be lunchtime.  going to geylang with kak su.  i feel for mcdonalds and lychee ice blend and brownie from coffee bean and most imptly, subway... the only halal one i know is at kl, coz the one at jb dah close down.

i had a bright idea last night before sleeping.  if money and time permits, insya'Allah.  tapi nie next year punyer cerita.  hopefully i wont forget eh. 

saturday seems so elusive.

smlm tengah balik dari kerja, my mom with penuh semangat and feeling-of-urgency called me when i was sleeping in the train. 

"ida, where u at??" 
"kat train ah.. kat bedok.. kenapa?"
"cepat balik.. mak Mazreen tadi call.. dia kata abang dia nak datang malam ni.."
"HUH?  why??  siapa??"
"entah tak tahu... Mama pon terkejut jugak... just balik cepat2 ajer.. " 

.. and she hung up.  i was still in a daze, why on earth ni?  so i sms Mazreen, thinking he might know, tapi dia pon tak reply until much later. 

rupa-rupanya the eldest bro wanted to send some fruits over, from their kampong trip.  (i thought he wanted to discuss a union btwn the 2 families.  hahahah)  One huge bag of rambutans and mangosteens.  liza and my dad had a good time eating fruits last night while watching tv. 

my mom, on the other hand, sent me off to Mazreen's house to send roti kirai with chicken curry and some fruits which Abg Aim brought home from his trip to his kampong. 

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53kg today.   let's all feel fat together.

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TaUFiQuE says:
hey wassup my fave ferring
s.h.i.d.a says:
im good.. wassup my fave counsellor
TaUFiQuE says:
good
TaUFiQuE says:
i have a paper tonite... not sure if i can do it... it's an open book paper
TaUFiQuE says:
but you know how it is with open book papers
s.h.i.d.a says:
yeah..
s.h.i.d.a says:
not that i really know, but yeah all the same... hahha
TaUFiQuE says:
shids....
TaUFiQuE says:
next time feign ignorance ah
s.h.i.d.a says:
hahaha.... ok
TaUFiQuE says:
eh the flowers.... what colour you like?
TaUFiQuE says:
blue... right?
s.h.i.d.a says:
can also can also
TaUFiQuE says:
my god!
TaUFiQuE says:
i'm pyshic
s.h.i.d.a says:
but u dont know how to speel
s.h.i.d.a says:
*spell
TaUFiQuE says:
that was so gay but it is ok
TaUFiQuE says:
like you can spell very well!
TaUFiQuE says:
cheh
s.h.i.d.a says:
mine was typo error
TaUFiQuE says:
mine also
s.h.i.d.a says:
ya right..
s.h.i.d.a says:
nvm, i will forget your typo error.. just give me flowers
TaUFiQuE says:
hmmm..... i send you office better right?
s.h.i.d.a says:
can also can also
s.h.i.d.a says:
lets see.. whats the add eh..
TaUFiQuE says:
you are pushing it a lil bit too hard dont you think...
s.h.i.d.a says:
i feel soooooooooo tak tahu malu..
TaUFiQuE says:
hahahha i know...
TaUFiQuE says:
should i take a bus or cab?
s.h.i.d.a says:
to where??
TaUFiQuE says:
to class....
s.h.i.d.a says:
oh. i thot to my office to send me flowers
s.h.i.d.a says:
hahahahaa
TaUFiQuE says:
eh, u think your co got vacancy for a counselor?
s.h.i.d.a says:
to counsel who??
s.h.i.d.a says:
me??
s.h.i.d.a says:
or my boss to give us more bonus?
TaUFiQuE says:
hahhaha
TaUFiQuE says:
ok....
TaUFiQuE says:
no lah jsut wondering thats all
TaUFiQuE says:
if lets say no counselling center wants me....
TaUFiQuE says:
then at least got back up or something
s.h.i.d.a says:
but there's nothing to counsel here lah fiq..
TaUFiQuE says:
or i can just work for the SCDF
s.h.i.d.a says:
unless u want to attend to me 24/7...
TaUFiQuE says:
tak nak ah
s.h.i.d.a says:
ok...
TaUFiQuE says:
ok lah, gtg ah for my test... bye bye senorita
s.h.i.d.a says:
bye..erm.. senor?
TaUFiQue says:
.....

what a boring day. i think it'll be a boring week also la. or rather, 2 weeks. perhaps 5 weeks? heh. this wkend is my duty, meaning i got to work on sunday. not that i mind, coz i actually like working on sundays - the office really quiet and all. but this week im just feeling so blah like that. M is in sembawang camp as per his tekong days.. meaning he'll only be out on sat afternoons and back to camp on sunday nights. for 5 weeks, til 28th August. boring kan aku. have to get used to tekong days again after a few weeks of being used to seeing him every alternate day. Supposed to meet farah tmrw, though im not sure if it's still on coz her dad's hospitalized, and supposed to meet Lydia on thursday. she sms me this morning ask if thursday is ok to meet.. so yeah thursday dinner with her. other days i'll just rot at home and get the long-overdue sleep or something.

i can finally use all those facial mask thing i bought last week too, hehe.

anyhoos. jsut a short update abt the weekend. saturday went to jb singga slalu to makan with family. black pepper crab. mee bandung. mineral water. mango ice blend which tasted like petrol (not that i have tasted petrol before, but u know what i mean) speaking of ice blend, i shall buy one from pearls later ah. Am waiting for mr.softie from kak su who went to 7/11 to buy. had mee goreng for lunch tadi. honeydew one slice. mineral water.

ok im getting sidetracked. so anyways. went to JB just to makan, then went to shell to petrolise the waja, and bought 4 packs of cig for M. went home, wrapped it up in a box with a letter outside, and the next day when i fetched him from khatib camp, i gave him one pack and told him its a present from jb. he thought it was the nike jersey...haha, banyak cantik your muka :) i hope he liked the gift, heheh.

then went to watch brotherhood at CS. 1115am movie. tak ramai orang. movie very good. i think korean movies have some way of making the viewers cry. sedih betul. but no i didn't cry at the whole movie ah.. only started when they were drafted into the army, and then they had to part with YoungShin and the mother and they were clutching each other's hands and didn't want to let go. I was feeling young-shin, imagining what if M (Jin Tae, hehe) has to go war, and i got emo then. hahaha. movie was quite gory, and i kept getting a bit terkejut when all the bombs exploded til M asked why i kept terkejut-ing. heh. i dont like all the loudsoundbombs and hands yg tercabut and the unexpected bloodiness. mcm a bit too realistic for my own good ah. but nonetheless, it was a good movie. honestly kan, it was more realistic than all those US-war-movies tau. maybe because the korean soldiers wore green uniform with leaves and all on the helmets ah.

so that was my weekend. nothing spectacular, other than me finding my way to khatib camp all by myself. drove at a steady 90kmh just in case i termiss the exit, and middle lane throughout. it was fun :)

sembawang camp: from khatib camp, straight til the end of the road, then turn right. nampak gambas exit, still go straight ajer to the end. then turn left. then can see sembawang camp already.

tapi nak balik tak tahu mcm mana.

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Of the many ingredients required to make a good marriage - compatibility, trust, respect, communication, similar values and goals - one other sticks out above the rest.

The will for the relationship to work.

'You'll always have bad times in a marriage,' he said.

'But if you have the will for it to work, it will get you through. You'll try harder. You wouldn't give up so
easily,' he said.

right now im just so pissed off with the world. 

first thing first. 

Aisyah - i know u will read this. (plus i dunno if u still check yr email which is why i just write here)  Pls keep what i have to say in mind.  before u update your blog, u think first ok.  people are reading the blog, and people can get hurt when they read something that bloggers write.. esp when that blogger is your own sister.  so think more before you blog. 

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i have come to realise that there are people who are bent on ruining your happiness for you.  its as if they cant bear to see you happy, or if your happiness interferes a bit with theirs, then they start spouting angry remarks and curses.  whatever for?  someone tell me im not the only one who has to experience this.   

and its not even to your face tau.  what the hell. 

ruin it all for me why dont u.  ruin it all and keep me caged or something for you to bring out whenever u like.  Why cant u keep in mind the sacrifices people make instead?   

I cant wait to sell the car.  Pasal kereta boleh jadi macam gini eh?   

if im in a beauty pageant, and they ask what do u wish for?  instead of saying world peace, i'll say i wish for people to stop being so hypocritical.

What a shit day. 

A new Backstreet Boys album is expected to be released later this year.
- from msn.com

(ok, short update before i update longer later abt the weekend.)

Backstreet boys is releasing another album!!  I nearly cried with joy with i read that.. i sooo cant wait, i love themmm sooo mucchhhh!!  *starstruck face*  hehe.  Gay pon gay ah.. but i think they can sing, and i dont care that i sound like a typical teen who is into boybands..  hahha...

when when when nie?  i hope its very very soon.  its been too long ah.  shall buy a copy and put in the car once its released.  oh God.  i can't wait.  hehehe. 

God.

I'm so mad right now, after hearing what my mom told me.  marah sampai macam nak meletup, mcm nak explode and implode and kill some people with my bare hands.  some people specifically being my mom's twin cik ani and her daughter azlin.  yes i hope they google their name and find this journal and know that i want them dead or somewhere else where they aren't able to spew up stories about my family.  what the hell nie make up stories about me raiding azlin's room, just to look at her bf's pic?? kau ingat boyfriend kau tu cute sangat ke aper?  think im so bloody immature like you?  please ah.  not everyone has their ass for brains like u ok.  i dont even acknowledge that you're alive and you expect me to go to your room and lock it and raid it in front of so many people??  nak buat cerita, at least make proper story ah.  bodoh nak mampos betul. 

on a side note.  thanks pag for clearing my name for me. 

beautifully intricate. says:
i lyk the way u say bye..
s.h.i.d.a says:
how did i say bye???
beautifully intricate. says:
"shut up la! bye."
beautifully intricate. says:
hahaha
beautifully intricate. says:
terus aku got the point and hung up..
s.h.i.d.a says:
oh.  hahahaa

this is what i think i am..

i get jealous easily. im very possesive. i dont like the thought that my bf will be touched, manja-ed by any other girl other than me, much less it really happening. but because i am quite fickle-minded, i can change my mind, all according to my own whims. if i think that it'll be fun, good for you, etc, then i dont mind. but i want to be there when/if it happens. but still, i dont like the thought of it. not at this moment, no. ya im possessive even though i dont even own him.

i like to think that i am good at what i do. but i know the truth is otherwise. don't point it out to me by comparison.

I hate hate hate being compared to any female. be it in positivity or negativity, old or young.

im very close-minded (as opposed to open-minded) I am very traditional, conservative. when it comes to love, I'm naive and idealistic.

I am lazy.

when i care about someone, i do all that i can within my means to make them happy.

i tend to think of the worst possible scenarios of everything and scare myself with it.

i usually dont tell people when im upset, feeling negativity - i like to think that all will be ok after a night sleep. but i know that it wont, but i just still shut up and not tell. which is not good coz i dont have a high level of..erm.. patience? so once it gets too much for me i tend to kinda explode, get angry - which i hate a lot. that's when i feel that all things come in threes, esp bad things. that's when i start doing mistakes in everything, and nothing goes right.

i dislike people talking abt death as the easy way out. You would be surprised at how many people thinks death can solve all their problems.

i like to feel appreciated and manjafied and sayangfied. i like surprises.

i am not materialistic at all. i do enjoy the simple things in life. not necessarily everything has to come with a huge price tag, i know that man.

sometimes i make people feel bad just to get an edge over something (not done often, but done nonetheless) and then i feel very bad when they do feel bad.

i get very irrationally upset when i get bad service at shops i go to.

i hate talking / discussing about money. i dont like to calculate money, i dont like people saying that i have money so i should spend on them. I'll spend on you if I feel like it. And if I don't, I don't care if you judge me. Coz its my own hard-earned money, I can spend it any way I like. I dont like people saying that i spend more on so-and-so than on so-and-so. i basically hate talking about money matters.

i dislike being told what to do or people interfering in something that i do. its like being told that im not good enough.

i can't cook, i can't do facials, i can't be friendly and talkative to people i dont know, i drive badly, i park even worst, i dont really take good care of my own personal belongings. i dont wash my own car.

i like dettol smells, disinfectant smells. i can get high on sgh's soap coz it smells way too nice. same goes for Mazreen's shokubutsu smell. i love Ambi Pur's dark-green air-freshener.

i love my parents, my 2 sisters and Mazreen way too much. ....very scared of losing them.

.. and I'm scared that whatever I do, it'll never be enough to make them happy.

as u can see, i let things affect me.    so i guess that's pretty much me.  there's more of course, because a person can never just be described in words just like that... but for now, that's pretty much what I think I am. 

silkair's new uniform is nice.  

oh.  PM Goh stepping down already.  so saddening.  altho i was never affected and all by this whole politics thing, but PM Goh is such a sweet grandfatherly fella, u know? 

bijal and kak and very aksyenly sms me just now (abt lunch time) "we're leaving on a jet plane!"  Aksyen kan!  I'm jealous man.. haha.  what i wouldn't do for a holiday right now at an idyllic seaside resort with spa and whatnots... in bikini and all eh *winks at some people.. haha*
 
colleague sitting behind me left the company yesterday and gave me a beary hp-holder since i always complain abt how i need a hp holder but cant find any nice ones.. so she bought one for me.  sweetness =)  my pen holder is also a present from an ex-colleague who left already.  it says Groovy Chick, heh.  my table needs a makeover ah. 
 
am chatting with farah and shakirah and fiq at the moment. 
 
friday night - supposed to have dinner with M and his parents.  coz its his dad's bday.  and apparently his sister called him to arrange a dinner for the whole family.  aku malus.  get that.  malu in plural form.  i know i met them all before but u know.. im still shy ah.  i know if its still on, with the whole family, i will go coz i think he'll be happy if i come with.. but... so malu like that.   (and dont say there's nothing to be malu about.  im naturally a shy person with people i dont know well)
 
movie date with farah smlm.  this morning talked and discussed abt it.  yeah yeah.  hahah. 
 
french is a very sexy language ;) 
 
Need a shopping outing soon.  clothes and shoes. 
 
i feel for spag bolognaise pizza hut.  mee soto sgh.  chicken pide turkish kitchen. 
 
imu again. 

had lunch with farah at novena's magic wok. over lemon chicken, kway teow and belachan fried rice, talked abt upcoming travel plans (cheh, mcm betul seh. haha. to bali ok thru KL, air asia cheap cheap) and abt our exercise plans. she's still into some aerobics thing, while im more into lazy exercises like yoga... and then, to prove my point abt how bad i am at coordinating my bodyparts, i told her abt the ACES day incident in sec 2 or sec 3, when my bra came undone during the exercise. laughed til we cried, coz she suddenly teringat how i pulled up my sleeve last time and then imagining how i put it back on. kelakar la.

now on msn with her, both feeling nak terbreak and sleepy. took cab back to ofis, where the cabdriver got lost, kept referring to the directory book, and sighing away. went all the way to KK hosp, bugis, city hall, raffles place and baru i saw tg pagar. and he drove very badly la, mcm some action-movie gitu, make me have headache only.

anyhoos. saturday we went to watch King Arthur at JB City Square. the movie was very heavily-edited, so there weren't any s e x scenes btwn the Guinevere and Arthur, no gory head-slashings and bloody killings. that's what we get for paying so cheaply for the movie ticket, accdg to Mazreen. the movie wasn't much good, i much prefer Troy. i got a bit funkified by the Woads though, if that's the correct name for them. the blue skin and all mcm a bit too much for me to take, hehe. and i hated those 2 irritating m'sians beside us who laughed loudly at the scenes where people died. bodoh betul. and im not a fan of that Keira Knightley lah. i think she's irritating - every movie she acts in, she has that haughty look. mcm no other face expressions. none of the actors were cute (i admit i like movies with cute actors, hehe) and i was reminded a lot of Troy during the movie. so all in all, i dont really like King Arthur the movie. 2/10. *askyen movie critic* hehe.

(ok some guy just called to ask abt my kapal. so funky, he cakap with this ultra funky accent, "cik shidaaa, kenapa tak boleh deKlare... kenapa voyage numberrr dia machem giney...A ke N... hancoorrr lah i kena deKlarrre lagey..." then he laugh2. funkiness.)

tmrw movie date with farah at lido or marina. to watch some funky movie to mark our coming-of-age-to-21. will update abt this on wednesday. hahaha. excited 'r us.

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now everyone, let's 'ooooh' and 'aaaah' together ok.

             




 
jealous kan aku. Cant remember the hotel name ah... something Del Mar in Langkawi. 
 
kak ana & bijal, have fun. bring back some pretty pix of the sunset and beach and rooms and spa and moonlight dinner by the beach for us ok.

damns i want to follow this tai tai wannabe. hehehe.

s.h.i.d.a says:
oh adila ajak u join that sms thing eh
elevan racing team ........... says:
yeah
elevan racing team ........... says:
shahrir pun
elevan racing team ........... says:
rashid pun
elevan racing team ........... says:
why?
s.h.i.d.a says:
then u join on whose invitation?
elevan racing team ........... says:
all of them
s.h.i.d.a says:
..
s.h.i.d.a says:
now u can send free sms to all of them eh
s.h.i.d.a says:
so good for u
elevan racing team ........... says:
asal ni ngan u?
s.h.i.d.a says:
why? what did i say or do wrong?
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok lah what ever
elevan racing team ........... says:
but i really know what u mean
s.h.i.d.a says:
what do i mean?
s.h.i.d.a says:
tell me what i mean
elevan racing team ........... says:
u mean i can msg dila kan???
s.h.i.d.a says:
no..
s.h.i.d.a says:
but yeah, u can sms her too now..
s.h.i.d.a says:
for free
s.h.i.d.a says:
and i wont know abt it too
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok ok
elevan racing team ........... says:
dah lah u
elevan racing team ........... says:
nanti i unsubscribe k
elevan racing team ........... says:
happy?
s.h.i.d.a says:
no
s.h.i.d.a says:
why shd u unsubscribe
s.h.i.d.a says:
these people, yr friends, ask u to join what
s.h.i.d.a says:
u shd keep in touch with them lor
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok ok
elevan racing team ........... says:
so now u happy i guess
s.h.i.d.a says:
yeah .. im always happy
elevan racing team ........... says:
as if
elevan racing team ........... says:
dah lah
elevan racing team ........... says:
i nak sleep lagi bagus
elevan racing team ........... says:
tak kene tempat
elevan racing team ........... says:
sign up pun salah
elevan racing team ........... says:
suke nah cemburu
s.h.i.d.a says:
aper nie
elevan racing team ........... says:
tak tentu pasal
s.h.i.d.a says:
siapa cemburu
elevan racing team ........... says:
u jgn step tak cemburu ar
s.h.i.d.a says:
but im not cemburu what
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok ok

the jealous/possessive psycho in me finally showed her true colors to the beloved.  hahaha. 

i was reading some random blog, abt this working twenty-plus girl who told her dad abt her bf for the first time.. and her dad's first questions were, "dia sembahyang?  dia ngaji?" 
 
funkily though, my dad never asked abt these kind of questions abt my friends.  neither did my mom (she didn't have to, i guess.  the first time we went out the 3 of us - me, M and my mom - M went to pray already, so i guess she didn't see the need to ask.  heh.)  does this make my dad less concerned abt religion?  i dont think so tau.  i guess they think that religion is more of a personal thing - of course kalau within family, just the 5 of us, its an impt matter to my parents whether we pray, etc or not.  but when it has to do with our friends, they never ask if my friends pray or not..
 
... plus i think it's not nice also to ask.  i hope this doesn't sound rude, but... i dont think its right for them (or any parents, for that matter) to ask abt anak orang punyer piousness, when/if their own child is not really right in that dept u know?  unless kalau anak dia betul2 very religious, then its ok lor.  
 
as Mus would say, its very ironic.  anak sendiri tak tanya, anak orang nak tanya.

elevan racing team ........... says:
u
elevan racing team ........... says:
where are u?
s h i d a says:
huh? where am i on where?
s h i d a says:
im at home lah
s h i d a says:
why
elevan racing team ........... says:
i noe lah u at home
s h i d a says:
meanwhile can chat here right?
elevan racing team ........... says:
right
s h i d a says:
nanti nak keluar dgn mahfudz semua pergi mana?
elevan racing team ........... says:
tak tau lagi
elevan racing team ........... says:
just plan 1st
elevan racing team ........... says:
some give idea to go jb
elevan racing team ........... says:
some just want to hang around
elevan racing team ........... says:
but probably play pool
s h i d a says:
ic.
elevan racing team ........... says:
why?
s h i d a says:
why what
elevan racing team ........... says:
u want to follow?
s h i d a says:
no.
s h i d a says:
kelakar ke
elevan racing team ........... says:
asal lak?
s h i d a says:
that i want to follow
elevan racing team ........... says:
why cannot follow?
s h i d a says:
i dunno them
elevan racing team ........... says:
u know me n mahfudz
s h i d a says:
plus if i go, that might stop u from hanging out with the girls or something..
elevan racing team ........... says:
where got girls?
s h i d a says:
dun have?
elevan racing team ........... says:
takde lah
s h i d a says:
oh
s h i d a says:
i thought have. hehehehe.
elevan racing team ........... says:
u are so paranoid u know
s h i d a says:
why?
elevan racing team ........... says:
thats so bad know
s h i d a says:
why u say im paranoid??
elevan racing team ........... says:
dont put thoughts in ur mind
s h i d a says:
what thoughts?
s h i d a says:
how do u know what im thinking?
elevan racing team ........... says:
girls and all
s h i d a says:
u dunno what im thinking what...
elevan racing team ........... says:
u think that girls are arnd and all
s h i d a says:
eh not wrong for me to assume that girls are giong what... coz u say yr sec sch friends..
elevan racing team ........... says:
no lah
s h i d a says:
and since u arent from a boys school, i assuemd got girls lah
elevan racing team ........... says:
no girls at all
s h i d a says:
so im wrong.
s h i d a says:
sorry.
elevan racing team ........... says:
suke assume things tau
s h i d a says:
no lah
s h i d a says:
im not assuming or being paranoid ok
elevan racing team ........... says:
then wat?
s h i d a says:
im not being anything
s h i d a says:
im just being shida.
elevan racing team ........... says:
haha
s h i d a says:
why u cant type HAHA?
elevan racing team ........... says:
to be more sarcastic
elevan racing team ........... says:
hehehe

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elevan racing team ........... says:
so cute kan u twirl ur hair
elevan racing team ........... says:
kinda primary skul girls attitude like that
s h i d a says:
i didnt know pri sch girls do that
s h i d a says:
so what do sec sch girls do?
s h i d a says:
and what do 21 year old girls do?
elevan racing team ........... says:
sec sch gals ignore me and get to know my sch mates
elevan racing team ........... says:
21yrs old gal find me and be with me for the rest of her life insya'allah

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s h i d a says:
eh ask u somethign eh
elevan racing team ........... says:
ye ask lah
s h i d a says:
ok nvm i ask u on the phoen
elevan racing team ........... says:
ask now
s h i d a says:
no later.
s h i d a says:
bye.
elevan racing team ........... says:
ask now
elevan racing team ........... says:
ask now
elevan racing team ........... says:
aswk now
elevan racing team ........... says:
ask now
elevan racing team ........... says:
cepat
elevan racing team ........... says:
tanye
s h i d a says:
later.
s h i d a says:
bye.
elevan racing team ........... says:
now
elevan racing team ........... says:
cepat
elevan racing team ........... says:
shidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
elevan racing team ........... says:
i want u to ask now
elevan racing team ........... says:
after that we can talk
s h i d a says:
why everytime i must listen to u
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok lah
elevan racing team ........... says:
call now lah
s h i d a says:
OK LAH
s h i d a says:
I WILL CALL U
s h i d a says:
JUST STOP CHATTNIG HERE
elevan racing team ........... says:
ask me the q first
s h i d a says:
PLEASE
s h i d a says:
IM TIRED OF TYPING ALREADY
s h i d a says:
P.
s h i d a says:
E.
s h i d a says:
N.
s h i d a says:
A.
s h i d a says:
T.
s h i d a says:
PLEASE
elevan racing team ........... says:
rude of u
s h i d a says:
THERE.. SO BOSSY.
elevan racing team ........... says:
to chat with caps
s h i d a says:
im exasperated.
elevan racing team ........... says:
everything i do salah tau
s h i d a says:
dont nonsense
elevan racing team ........... says:
ye lah
elevan racing team ........... says:
u takmo chat... i suruh call pun u kate bossy
s h i d a says:
memang cara u suruh i call, very bossy..
s h i d a says:
i dont like bossiness ok
elevan racing team ........... says:
ok lah
elevan racing team ........... says:
but im not
s h i d a says:
yes u are
s h i d a says:
sometimes u are
elevan racing team ........... says:
have i ever boss u arnd/
s h i d a says:
why are we being stupid using both the phone and pc at the same time
 
cuteness eh. this was yesterday, at night. after scrabble online one game.  i won. someone resigned. sore loser :)

Evening Primrose Oil is good. heals the pimple faster, makes your period more..erm.. normal also, i think. hehe.

i feel for nasi ayam at ahbeng and the nasi goreng seafood at putrajaya's foodcourt. and nando's mango smoothie.

shakirah. i keep thinking abt the stuffing the face into the breasts... its so funny la. hehee =) was fun chatting with u.

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Each player shall furnish his own equipment for play, normally one club and two balls.

Play on course must be approved by the owner of the hole.

Unlike outdoor golf, the object is to get the club in the hole and keep the balls out.

For most effective play, the club should have a firm shaft. Course owners are permitted to check shaft stiffness before play begins.

Course owners reserve the right to restrict club length to avoid damage to the hole.

Object of the game is to take as many strokes as necessary until the owner is satisfied play is complete. Failure to do so may result in being denied permission to play again.

It is considered bad form to begin playing the hole immediately upon arrival. Experienced players will normally take time to admire the entire course, paying special attention to well formed mounds and bunkers.

Players are cautioned not to mention other courses they have played or are currently playing to the owner of the course being played. Upset owners have been known to damage a players equipment for this reason.

Players are encouraged to have proper rain gear, just in case.

Players should not assume that the course is in shape to play at all times. Players may be embarrassed if they find the course temporarily under repair. Players are advised to be extremely tactful in this situation. More advanced players will find alternate means of play when this is the case.

Players should assume their match has been properly scheduled particularly when playing a new course for the 1st time. Previous players have been known to become irate if they discover someone else is playing what they considered a private course.

The owner of the course is responsible for the pruning of any bushes, which may reduce the visibility of the hole.

Players are strongly advised to get the owners permission before attempting to play the backside.

Slow play is encouraged, however, players should be prepared to proceed at a quicker pace at the owners request.

It is considered an outstanding performance, time permitting, to play the same hole several times in one match.

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There is more money being spent on breast implants and Viagra than on Alzheimer's research. This means that by 2030, there should be a large elderly population with perky boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do with them.
- Dave Berry

am playing scrabble online with farah right now. am also waiting for Mazreen to come online sometime soon in his life. by the time this game with farah ends, if he's not online, im going to sleep. for once i want to sleep early.

despite medication, the bleeding hasn't stopped. very worrying. perhaps its bcoz i haven't been taking the medication regularly, but i take it as often as i can, so one or two missed ones shouldn't really be a prob kan? tapi kenapa the bleeding mcm still no diff nie? mcm2 hal ah.

was on halfday morning leave. took the time to eat the Pop Mee that Pag very nicely bought for me from batam, and watch tv, read papers, slept a further half an hour and somemore in the train. (entah kenapa sekarang mcm always so sleepy ah. smlm lagi best.. on the way home, slept in the train from city hall onwards. tersadar at tampines. hehee :)

is this sleepiness-all-the-time counted as fatigue? what does fatigue feel like?

"The only turn off was the presence of miss aisha halim from tkgs. Yes Shida,you know her too, I dunno why tkgs gerls cant end up like you or Dina or my cousin Ilyana for that matter"
- from Shakirah's blog.

hehe, im pleased to read that. thanks shakirah =) ya lah, kenapa si aisha mcm gitu? actually i dunno how she was like to shakirah, tapi the last time i saw her, terserempak at tg pagar mrt, she was so ultra sombong with her ultratight hipsters and spiked up hair and chubby cheeks. i knew she knew i knew we realised each other's presence tapi cannot smile pon tau. tak paham sungguh.

i am actually a fan of britney spears tau. and victoria beckham too. im not saying this just because i love her new song "everytime" but because i really like her since last time. i have her first 3 albums and i remember listening to them all the time, haha. right now 'Lucky' is on 98.7, bringing back many memories.. poly days and such. heh.

victoria beckham - i just like her for her hairstyles, face (she's so gorgeous eh) and her semangat to make albums and all even though the whole world knows she can't sing. and I love that stuckup look that she does so well. heheh.

bought evening primrose oil tadi. 2 bottles for $35. Must remember to eat them regularly. 2 capsules a day. It helps keep skin radiant and supple and to regulate the blood flow in the body and it helps in the a woman's mthly cycle. i feel so adult eating that.. haha.

Oprah's website is good to help u pass time. good articles and all.

went to Mak Long's house last night. She, Cik Tini and Hairi going umrah this thursday. Elysa is gorgeous (note : not cute tau. for a baby, she's gorgeous. i'll post up her pic soon when i got time) GG working at Taka Watson's, for all those who want to find him.. hehe. Cik Tini keeps looking at my face and smiled... kinda sweet in a funky way. hehee. I know she thinks im pretty, (not being what-what here tau, im being honest. she and cik man always go on and go on abt how pretty i am. i guess they have a soft spot for malaybrownskinned demure sweet girls like me? hehehehehe. i sound so prasan eh. hehehe. sorry)

then masa nak balik, Mak Long hugged me and cried. i was like, macam lost, coz I was never close to her or anything, so i just patted her back awkwardly. Caught the eye of Cik Tini and I smiled helplessly. hehehe. maybe she wanted to hug mama or something, tapi ter-hug me, so just continue sort of thing? hehehee.

took the 8am train this morning. Will never take the train that early again ok... the people mcm one kind like that, (so unlike the 8.50 people who are so relak, everyone got their own corners like that) This 8am people hog the pole and spread their newspapers like as if the train not cramped enough, and the train so slow and the aircon wasn't strong and i felt so suffocated and like a sardine. by the time the train sampai lavender, i was nearly going mad already with this nyonya beside me who was reading her book and kept elbowing me and the makcik infront of me who always nearly stand up (konon mcm nak turun train like that) tapi she wd look around and sleep again.

Didn't have dinner last night. And today lunch just had 4 fishballs and a can of coke. Tonight sakura ok? Lhemone Chicorne.

had a nap during lunch time tadi... apparently kak su talked to me or something while i was sleeping, but i didn't hear. phone was on silent so when M called i didn't answer also. so ngantuk.

i miss my cousins ah. raimi, jam, dayah, ton, jaja, raihan, ahpeez, syaza. all these small lovelies. then dah lama tak jumpa pag, abg aim, kak ana, bijal and falee. i actually miss iwan also. i wonder how he is now.

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ok just hung up the phone with kak ana. kerinduan to these people make me call them up. tadi call pag but she's not at her desk, so call kak ana pulak. mcm best like that, bual2 for no reason. heheh.

ok lah, shall sit around some more wait for 6 pm to come.

Brandy's "Have U ever" on radio now. so nice the song.

went to watch Windstruck last night with Mazreen. soooo sad. the only other time i cried at the movies was during Titanic (and Kuch Kuch Hota Hei :) .. (yg lain semua cry while watching at home, i think, hehe) The ending super cheesy tapi super sad ah (and im not the only one who cried ok, in the toilet afterwards I heard people talking abt when they started crying. personally i started when she thought he died at the river/lake/whatever. Then i started again when he died. then at the last part cannot tahan already, nearly sobbed. hahah. someone irritatingly laughed. tsk) the funny part (when he did that angry outburst at the police station when confronted with the gang leader) pon made me (laugh til i..) cry, coz it was so super funny ah. to me at least, hehe.

tonight supposed to watch Mean Girls with Lydia, tapi mcm no money already.. then dah promise Farah to watch that spanish movie next week. (btwn The Other Side of the Bed and Mean Girls, i would rather watch the first one lor. i dont understand why people would want to watch Mean Girls. hehe)

all this moviewatching frenzy - i just realised watching movie really destresses you after a hard day at work.

hehhe. mcm betul ajer.

got scolded by my dad smlm abt the car. sigh.


~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
or should i get her pink roses..... http://www.jurliss.com/
since pink is her fave colour
s h i d a says:
no. pink roses is like, so cliche like that
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
oh wait!!! http://www.jurliss.com/florist_singapore_sale_menu_1.htm
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
the sunflower one
s h i d a says:
no i prefer the 2nd one.. the 79 one.. this one looks stiff
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
hhhmmm....but 79 for 6 stalks...this is a dozen
s h i d a says:
oh really? ... but it looks so stiff tau.. mcm not very... nice like that..
s h i d a says:
eh where got a dozen???? its 5 only lah
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
http://www.jurliss.com/cgi-bin/jurliss/singapore2.asp
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
how????
s h i d a says:
which one?
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
Bright Yellow SunFlowers
s h i d a says:
erm.. i still prefer the 79 one.. but this one comes in 2nd..
s h i d a says:
ya, but i fell in love with the whole package... hahaha
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
make up ur mind ah
s h i d a says:
ok... u take this one, but tell them u want champagne coloured packaging ah.. the yellow packaging makes it look cheap ah
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
whoa.... u know ur stuff
s h i d a says:
hahaha... yeah i feel so proud of myself man..
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
i'll go look around somemore...
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
can ah shids... u go recce for me at international plaza
s h i d a says:
but yeah look ard somemore.. u never know, u can get more for less u know?
s h i d a says:
why sunflowers? i like the cliche deepbloodred roses.. heheh..
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
cos that her fave flowers
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
i wonder if no of roses & sunflowers still have same meanings... cos it only says a certain amy of rose has a certain meaning
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
http://www.prince.com.sg/Info_MeaningOfFlower.asp
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
go check out... tell me what u think
s h i d a says:
i think diff ah.. coz they specially state roses... and diff flowers u know?
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
http://www.bouquet4u.net/product_details.asp?ProductID=42&CatSID=32
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
babes... how can pass?
s h i d a says:
eh this one is pretty
s h i d a says:
so ladylike like that
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
ok can.....???
s h i d a says:
its nice!!!
s h i d a says:
CAN
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
pass or fail?
s h i d a says:
VERY CAN
s h i d a says:
VERY PASS
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
ok SET!!!!!!!!!!!!!
s h i d a says:
i think its nice
s h i d a says:
gorgeous
s h i d a says:
the best i seen so far!
s h i d a says:
damns fiq.
s h i d a says:
its nice
s h i d a says:
ok i should stop praising it
s h i d a says:
but damns its nice
s h i d a says:
so pretty and elegant
s h i d a says:
so nice
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
ok best
s h i d a says:
how about a bouquet for me? hehehee..
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
i'll give u flower another time
s h i d a says:
make that flowerSSS...
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
shoot... thought u wont notice
s h i d a says:
hahaha
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
I APPRECIATE NURSHIDA BINTE HUSSIN FOR HELPING ME CHOOSE FLOWERS!!!!
s h i d a says:
hahahah...
s h i d a says:
can i do a thank you speech????
s h i d a says:
hehehehe
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
also hope that i dont have to give her any....


i actually think flowers are kinda cliche, and i dont like cliche stuff. not that i would mind. hint hint. hehe.

the beloved waja got into another accident.. this time with me behind the wheels. at causeway on saturday on the way to JB with Mazreen. Some yellow lorry didn't stay in his lane and bumped into my car, the right side at the back.. (remember the first one was on the right front side - some car hit and run. so skarang mcm even out) I was driving, sekali felt the car mcm pushed to the left, so i looked at the right side mirror, sekali saw it still pushing into my lane. my heart plummeted to the ground (then the lorry figuratively ran over it i guess.. haha) actually kan, it was so scary tau seeing the lorry bumping against my car. and then i didn't know whether to panic and cry or stop the car and hang onto the lorry and then do some funky movie-style murder of the driver. so anyhoo, the lorry sped past while i was trying to calm down and make sense of the whole situation. by then mcm terlupa abt Mazreen like that, hehe.

so anyhoo, stopped the car at the immigration place, inspected the damage (by this time da abt to cry already, haha) - there were all these black dirt marks, and some scratches. at that time the dent mcm not noticeable. we change money, then go some place to see what can be done.. ended up at a car wash and then the guy said can polish off the car, therfore erasing away the dirt marks, and scratches less noticeable or something ah. cost us RM90. so kita pon duduk lah kat situ for abt an hour, while he polished and cleaned up the car.

... baru then the dent became noticeable (and the scratches less) Not very noticeable la actually the dent, but can see la if u look hard enough. and then we saw some paint chipped off near the wheel, very heart-pain.

after that. went to city square. subway da closed down, so we bought pizza and walked ard a bit. sungguh no mood to drink caramel cream and all already. felt so down then. kept wondering if I had went into his lane or did he go into my lane. i seriously think he got into my lane lor. bloody hell. RM90 down the drain just like that. blooooody hell.

end of story (abt the car).

2nd one.
smlm went to Arnolds city plaza to makan with my mom and 2 sisters. funkiness of all funkiness, there was this chinese lady who came after us, and sat at the table next to us. according to aisyah and my mom, she looked slightly out, but to me she looks normal (but we dont take into account her clothes first la) Coz this is what she was wearing - hot pants (those ultra short kind with the butt cheeks out, cellulite and all? haha) and u know those comfy big guyish tshirts u sometimes wear to sleep? she was wearing one of those, but with the sleeves cut off, and she wasn't wearing a bra. aisyah was like, 'sial ah. boleh nampak seh semua.' funkiness. the guys there kept looking over, haha. after that me and aisyah and my mom were laying out all the possible reasons why she's like that. prostitute out of business, or too many customers so mcm dah tak kisah siapa lagi nampak mungkin, or she simply didn't realise the sleeves were cut off, revealing her breasts? funky betul.

saw a dark-beige skirt at city plaza, so pretty. $49. so exp. so i didnt buy. kickers shoes ($99) pon mcm suddenly not pretty sangat like that. entah kenapa.

petrol is too damns expensive in singapore.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

there's a drive-in movie at pasir ris chalet carpark B tonight.. Me and Mazreen going (though i dunno how to watch a movie in a car which got no rooftop thing that u can open, u know?) and its only $3 for one car.. im not sure if per person got charge or not, but i dont think so. Quite cool eh. I dunno what movie also actually.. haha.. but it shd be quite cool ah to bring my waj to watch a movie. hehee.

bad flu now. took the white pill at 7 pm last night but it tak jalan. so at 11pm i took the yellow pill pulak. knocked me out like what like that. fell asleep, woke up with my whole mouth and nose dry and i suddenly feel like i dunno how to breathe like that. was thinking... if i take the sgh medicine on top of these flu pill, confirm i be dehydrated skarang. as it is, right now i dunno how to breathe also. struggling bruggling.

drinking vitagen makes ur stomach feels tight eh?

sorry there wasn't any updates for the past 2 days. been reading this guy's blog which he filled with a lot of short stories and i got hooked on reading them.

"banyak-banyak penyakit ada... merepek betul si shida ni kena sakit yang gitu pulak.."
- Nenek.

Alhamdulillah. things, so far, aren't as bad as i thought it was.. thank God for that. Went with my mom and liza. Waited for so long for a 15 minute checkup (as usual, poke here, poke there) Have to come back in one month.. if there's still bleeding, then go for xray or whatever else to see what's wrong. The dr is so young, chinese, male, but he was sooooo nice. so unlike the polyclinic one. and the nurse is even better, soooo sweet. and the procedure soooo better also, they gave something to cover u up and all that.

so yeah yeah. all's quite good at the moment, and for that im thankful :)

end of episode 1.

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one month ago, we were at kl! rewind back time, shall we?

for those who are interested, this is what it says on my referral letter as written by the dr at the polyclinic.

* bld with stools X 1/12t
* (on + off) active bleedg, constipation
* o/g:alest:toxic
* pale
* bp 120/80
* abd/

doesnt look that scary when i put it up here eh. I dunno what is alest:toxic and abd/... and i dunno if it's me or other parts of my body that is pale, hehe.

one good thing so far is that I realised I am surrounded by the sweetest people. You know who you are. Thank you :)

I dunno what to say here actually. I'm kind of tired saying that I'm scared, and worried. But I am, so that makes it a contradiction. I'm trying not to think about it at all, i'll try leave the worrying til tmrw when the dr starts poking around.. haha.. and of course for that I have to thank kak ana, kak su and mazreen for taking my mind off things :) from double dates to corsets to surprises at simei.

sweetness.

Insya'Allah i'm ok. Only God knows how I feel now man.

~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
it's not wrong to be ignorant if u honestly not informed
~TaUFiQuE ~ says:
but it is wrong to be ignorant by choice..

what a shit day.

i seem to have lost it lately. I'm always getting angry (as you can see from the last post?) and im always getting all negative. Something's wrong - this has to stop and i am fully aware it has to stop.. I can tell it's affecting people around me, but I feel like a monster sometimes, I can't help it u know? Like Doc Ock who wants to destroy the world.. haha. That didn't any much connection ah, but u know what I mean?

I lost it ah. Whatever it is, only God knows. But I lost it.

Let this be the entry where I 'expose' some things deep in me.

Though maybe, I seem like I try not to care or I try to forget, things usually get clogged up in me. Most of the time, I have to lie to myself, and even to the people around me, that everything's alright. Swallowing bitter disappointment isn't an easy task, but time and time again, I managed to just, gulp it down, and try to drown it deep inside of me. I think I usually give a little in-your-face sarcasm OR walk away OR just keep quiet. Seething, only God knows. Neither is my walking away due to cowardice nor is keeping quiet a sign that I'm helpless, but mostly, because, I fear I'll blurt out unpleasant words that may worsen the situation with ill consequence.

What I say to that.. don't try to test the water. You don't know what lurks inside and when it's gonna strike. I'm not trying to brag or be egoistical here. Just that, I value relationships and....*shudders*

Well, let me just say something now.

I hate feeling unappreciated.

My little gestures only show that I value the person(s) I take the time to do things for. All because I appreciate the love and care these people have given me. All because, I love them.

Don't take me for granted.


Please?

so much for anniversaries and all that. am i being unreasonable if I ask you for just a dinner together tonight? Not to spend the whole saturday together tau, but just to meet up for dinner. I can understand you want to spend the afternoon with your friends, tapi delay punyer delay, sampai u sempat tido and all. BUT of course somehow your friends call you mesti answer. Somehow MESTI DENGAR. If I call, OH TAK DENGAR, RINGER TAK ON LA... I PENAT LA... I CHARGE HP, VIBRATIONS TAKDER.

I SMS, REPLY PON TAKDER.

Whats the point of saying 'oh we celebrate such and such' and then when it nicely falls on a saturday, you go and spend the day with someone else.

Maybe I AM being unreasonable and not understanding and whatever else you want to call me. Who cares. I am bloody upset and bloody pissed off and VERY MAD and this is my blog i can vent all I want.

I'm sick and tired of asking you out and constantly getting rejected, and feeling 2nd place to your friends.

I'm done. I want to be unreachable.

today's our 9 yrs 5 months anny :)

im not sure if we meeting today or not though. he's at JB and im still in the office. i hope he buys my subway.

watched Spiderman2 last night at CS with Mazreen. very good show, very unexpected coz i was never a fan of these kind of movies, but Spiderman2 is very good la. if only i watched the first one also..

oh. and James Franco (who plays Harry Osborn) is so ultra gorgeous :)







heh. not as cute as M la, but still gorgeous nonetheless.. hehehe.

Avril Lavigne's new song, I think the title is Happy Ending?, is very nice. she sounds good on that song ah.

Met Mus yesterday on my way home in the train! Sungguh dah lama never see him, and it turns out that he was away on a loooong holiday to Yemen and Jakarta. It was so funky coz I was going down the escalator, thinking I haven't seen him for the longest time and wondering how he is, sekali naik train terus ternampak dia. Very coincidental seh. Anyhoos, we made plans to meet next week, bringing the waja along coz he say he tak pernah naik before.

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beautifully intricate. says:
aku nak makan at bk ah.
s h i d a says:
taknak ah
s h i d a says:
i know u didnt ask me... but i just tell u ah
beautifully intricate. says:
o. as usual, ida offers info unasked.
s h i d a says:
eh KAU pon offer info aper.. kau yg kata nak makan at bk and all
beautifully intricate. says:
so we enjoying offering freee info
s h i d a says:
pot calling the kettle info
s h i d a says:
EH
s h i d a says:
*black
s h i d a says:
aku baca kau tulis info, aku pon tulis info
beautifully intricate. says:
ahahhaa
beautifully intricate. says:
pot calling the kettle info.. not a bad name apa..
beautifully intricate. says:
pot...kau tak balik ke?
s h i d a says:
aku belum tahu ah info...
s h i d a says:
eh INFO sounds clever ah
s h i d a says:
POT sounds vulgar nie!
beautifully intricate. says:
knapa belum tahu pot?
beautifully intricate. says:
ahahaha.. its ok..u came up wif the names..
s h i d a says:
no i want a change of names
beautifully intricate. says:
ok POT
beautifully intricate. says:
i caps ur name ok? make u feel more impt..hehe
beautifully intricate. says:
so POT knapa tak balik?
s h i d a says:
aku tak tahu ah *whispers* info
beautifully intricate. says:
knapa kena whisper POT?
beautifully intricate. says:
im actually hving fun at work..ahaha.. thx to u.. ahaha
s h i d a says:
pasal kau CAPS aku nyer POT... abis aku tak tahu opposite of CAPS aper..
beautifully intricate. says:
oh..POT... tak yah leceh leceh..
beautifully intricate. says:
call me info in lower key dah boleh.. tak yah kecoh kecoh ok POT?
s h i d a says:
tak nak ah.. tak fair ah gitu...
beautifully intricate. says:
ahahaha
s h i d a says:
aku dah lah feel vulgar and not so clever as u info...
beautifully intricate. says:
its ok..info tak believe in fairness lah POT
s h i d a says:
kau info aku mcm mana nak buat opposite of CAPS..
beautifully intricate. says:
ahaha..i cant stop smiling super widely..
s h i d a says:
eh serious ah. POT is seriously vulgar sounding.
beautifully intricate. says:
oh...its ok..info can make my own POTS..ahaha
beautifully intricate. says:
shit im laughing
beautifully intricate. says:
vibrating on my chair
beautifully intricate. says:
info ada byk sgt info so vibrate.. then spread evenly in my brain
s h i d a says:
wah.. ahahaha.. tak payah beli vibrator
beautifully intricate. says:
tu ah....boleh buat sendiri.. ahaha
beautifully intricate. says:
aku suka zul.
s h i d a says:
is ZUL a POT also?
beautifully intricate. says:
no no....ZUL is my kind..
s h i d a says:
i dont think ZUL can be a POT.. he can be the kettle ah
beautifully intricate. says:
oh... tak....dia jadi counter..
beautifully intricate. says:
so aku ngan dia jadi info counter.. ahaha


that chat was fun and funny =)

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself...And if you find someone to love the you that you love, well, that's just fabulous." -Carrie S.A.T.C


today i feel very satisfied with myself :) i think i did work well today (ok la, mmg tak banyak sangat kerja, 2 small kapals only, tapi i feel i did it well, hehe) and my tummy isn't giving me probs (other than wondering when is my next period) and.. i dunno man, i just feel at peace today. hehe. so yeah Alhamdulillah, feeling quite good today, compared to the past few days.

someone is really quiet today, i wonder what's up. he hasn't replied my sms at all, and we didn't talk at all for this whole day. i hope he's ok. i miss him la.

so yeah yeah. nothing to update la. just feeling really..erm.. peaceful right now. like i dont want to deal with heavy stuff, i just want the windy cooling light stuff.. am i talking nonsense? perhaps ah. but i feel at peace lor, so im glad.

perhaps i finally got tired of worrying, hehe.